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Category: A Step Back In Society

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Descended from the highs of success, riches and popularity, to fall through a plague of mental health issues, vanishing into the helpless loneliness of obscurity, this era deals with the diagnosis of my anxiety, and the subsequent struggle to help rebuild myself, and gain a sense of control over my life.

Era Duration: Diary entries span from May 1, 2003 to April 30, 2004.

A Disciplined Month Of Socials – Mad Chaos: October 19, 2003

Diary entry for October 19, 2003. The Shadow Of The Writer, Visit Imad, Hang Out With Tatton & Shawn, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

On Top Of My Anxieties – Mad Chaos: June 25, 2003

Diary entry for June 25, 2003. On The Outside Of Anxieties, Creating Diary Era Titles, Published Books, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Living With A Sense Of Optimism – Mad Chaos: June 11, 2003

Diary entry for June 11, 2003. A Wholesome Day Of Highs, Revising The Diary Histories, Optimistic Day, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Motorola Mobile Phone Purchased – Mad Chaos: June 11, 2003

Diary entry for June 8, 2003. A Planned Day In Town, Buy A Mobile Phone, Many Doors Open, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

A Brush With Lyssa Forces Reevaluation – Mad Chaos: June 8, 2003

Diary entry for June 8, 2003. Pushed To Write, Antisocial Weekend, Finances, A Brush With Lyssa, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Confronting My Fear Of Rejection – Mad Chaos: June 4, 2003

Diary entry for June 4, 2003. Bump Into Yazmin In Supermarket, Courage To Make A Connection, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Walk Dark Corridors Alone – Mad Chaos: June 2, 2003

Diary entry for June 2, 2003. Lyssa Leaves A Hole, In Control Of My Mind, Reflecting On Three Wasted Years, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Revelation Of Boredom – Mad Chaos: June 1, 2003

Second diary entry for June 1, 2003. Inundated By Internal Escapes, Goal To Focus On Employment, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

A Steadily Industrializing Mind – Mad Chaos: June 1, 2003

First diary entry for June 1, 2003. Peak Consciousness Of The Writer, Hard To Move On, Diary Revisions, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Diary Histories Revision Resumes – Mad Chaos: May 21, 2003

Diary entry for May 21, 2003. Reasons To Wake Up, Revise The Diary, New Gym Schedule, Job Search, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Routines To Counter My Anxieties – Mad Chaos: May 20, 2003

Diary entry for May 20, 2003. A Fun Day Grocery Shopping, Break Through Morning Anxieties, Shopping, Gym, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Manga Band Sessions – Mad Chaos: May 19, 2003

Diary entry for May 19, 2003. Mentally Disciplined Fortnight, Paying Down Debts, Diary Editorial Process, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Diary Eras Editorial Project – Mad Chaos: May 18, 2003

Diary entry for May 18, 2003. A Busy Two Weeks, Socials, Gym, Editorial Project Commences, Musical Jam, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Diagnosed With Mild Schizophrenia – Mad Chaos: April 30, 2003

Diary entry for April 30, 2003. See Jewell, Feeling Positive, See Psychiatrist, Replace Antidepressant Medication, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Importance Of Values – Mad Chaos: April 26, 2003

Diary entry for April 26, 2003. A Measure Of Identity, Nearly Debt-Free, Skipping Medication, Spiting Dad, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Root Cause Of My Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 23, 2003

Diary entry for April 23, 2003. Anxiety Improves, Going At My Own Pace, Researching Historical Anxiety, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Shifting Punishment Between Siblings – Mad Chaos: April 20, 2003

Diary entry for April 20, 2003. Loathing Dad, Reliving Childhood Traumas, My Pattern Of Anxieties, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

My Brother’s Return Triggers Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 15, 2003

Diary entry for April 15, 2003. Coming To Terms With Change, Sharing Space With My Anxiety, Darker Place, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Taking Baby Steps With Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 8, 2003

Diary entry for April 8, 2003. Battle With Depression, Baby Steps With Anxiety, Social Practice, Sexually Frustrated, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Situational Isotopes Of Anxiety – Mad Chaos: April 7, 2003

Diary entry for April 7, 2003. Cause Of Anxieties, Root Of My Paranoia, How I Find Solace, Visit An Anxiety Clinic, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

Cleaning Up My Life – Mad Chaos: April 4, 2003

Diary entry for April 4, 2003. Fitness Goal, Withdrawal Symptoms, Regulated Sleep, New Fridge, Positive Routines, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The First Cardinal Sin – Mad Chaos: March 11, 2003

Diary entry for March 11, 2003. Sydney Hotel Room, Unspeakable Mistake, Emotional Breakdown, Visit Doctor, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary

The Path Into Darkness – Mad Chaos: March 3, 2003

Diary entry for March 3, 2003. How Anxiety Enveloped Me, Matryoshka Dolls Analogy, So Unhappy At Home, and more. Diary of a Mad Chaos – Longest Online Diary