The Peak Consciousness Of The Writer
A sober moment personifies the writer, as he uses precious time to tread finely back into the past. I have music on in the background and headphones on my ears as my eyes browse those industrialized months where my shades and a certain consciousness was built. I miss those days and their commanded poise. I read back on the simplicity and remember the hours and pages on pages on pages. I used to love it. But nowadays, I could hardly buy a nutshell of denotation.
Life used to be explicit in my memoirs. I was definitely up against it in those days, but lack of reassurance made me into this confused man whose personal fears rose up and took him. I may never write like that again, in a fluent tradition. But nonetheless, my recent memoirs hold a sense of déjà vu.
Find It Hard To Move On
I feel a certain kinship with a brave new world as we enter from relative obscurity into an age of reasoning. I am one of those people who find it hard to move on as well. I found it hard to move on from my joie de vivre, from the badgering bane, from these memoirs in its days of uncertainty and even from work in the days of the dark knight. Moving out of this house is even hard because of a lot of unsubstantiated fears.
I feel relevant this month however for that which my memoirs are here to denote. I may not be as interactive as old sagas, but I am dealing with a steadily industrializing mind.
Printing A Revised Diary Edition
Life moves predictably slow now however, unlike the breakneck days of a brave new world. I used to be simpler in those days too. But nonetheless, it is time to move on. Perhaps these memoirs will continue to reach new powers, and perhaps not.
I may never write as fluently or be ambitious like the true millennium but it would be nice to print new editions of these pages. Might I be as bold as to say I will by the end of this month? One can only hope a proper respect for those legacies but it would be nice nonetheless.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
