The Reason I Omit Question Marks
Well, well, well, I’m starting to use question marks these days just a bit more than I used to. I’m not sure if I’ve ever done an article on my question mark theory but here goes. The reason I don’t use question marks in my diary, normal literature or in my poems is because they don’t serve a consequential purpose. Question marks should be supplemented by full stops or commas and only used when there is an indisputable point to be fabricated right after it.
What good is a question mark when you are only using them rhetorically, like “Do you think that is right?” It just doesn’t seem enough. Another example of a good utilization of the question mark, when a question mark is part of an elaborate piece of writing where you will salvage an answer within the question mark, then you can use it. Only then will the question mark truly value its purpose. Where you know the answers to your questions, there is no need.
A good example of a question mark was one of my poems to Jewell. Most of the lines in the poem needed a question mark as I had a lot of questions to ask. Nevertheless, commas were placed within these slots. Right at the end of the whole letter was there a singular question mark placed, to value the importance of the letter.
Thinking about the real question within all the unanswered questions you would find in every line a highlighted letter. Once again, you would be wondering. Well, it turns out, each letter put together forms a question and at the end of it, the sold question mark. The question, you ask, something that nothing can answer, nothing but time, which validates its true potential. “When Can I Touch Your Lips Once Again,” was the question. If you are an avid reader of my diary (or just know because you are part of the havoc), then you will have demystified my whole anecdote.
Dedications CD Song Order
Now I’m here, on my diary and once again, have written a long passage. My only wishes were that this could be my first edition to this month but there was a memorable and unique first entry in its rightful place.
Now listening to the CDs, I believe I have found my two songs unless I find something better in the next couple of weeks. Because of this new song from ‘II D Extreme’ I feel that I have to rearrange the order of my songs. Now, the new song will come in front of ‘Just Hold On’ by ‘Boyz II Men’ and before ‘Am I Dreaming’. ‘Keep It On The Down low’ will be the intro now for ‘Just Hold On’ or it might be at the end of it decided upon which sounds better.
This arrangement of songs now chronicles my feelings for each important date and factor of Jewell and I. Starting with February 1st, the date Jewell and I first met. Things were not solid. I don’t believe Jewell and I were going out at this point in time. But ‘Girl In The Life Magazine’ by ‘Boyz II Men’ really signifies the reality of that day.
The first day we met, the girl that wasn’t real to me as she walked in her silhouetted blue dress across my vision, towards my life to be and into my reality.
That last line was poetry to my ears I must admit. It must be a logo.
The second song ‘What Kind Of Love Is This’ signifies our first passionate kiss, where I was so proud to be with her. I was really asking myself, whether my love was turning out to be very real and what kind of love it was.
The third song reveals our attitudes on March 11th, which stresses the importance of that date with an intro. The moods of the songs accentuate our feelings towards that moment, sweated passion that was stopped short.
The forth song, an added dimension to the first CD reveals the date Jewell received my letter. With a great collaboration of words, it is understood that the letter was written before the songs date, signifying I wrote it the day before or prior.
The fifth song should have been my own song, “Tonight As We Sat Down” for I made it solely for this CD, but that fell through. This song would have brought a great realism and insight onto the day we were in the park and then headed for the party thus ‘Where I started seeing a problem within the relationship and Jewell’. Maybe in my next CD I write I will include my song but already, the pictures of the place we visited are highlighted within the artwork on the CD and the CD Booklet.
In actuality, the fifth song is ‘Slip Away’. It denotes an important time in our relationship, where Jewell found it to inform me she wanted to break up, something was going wrong.
Somewhere between this day and the next three or four days I wrote her letters, I finally made the decision to part with her instead. Myself, sheer pride of trying to fix something that was broken meant that parting oddly would be a bonus. To me, it made sense to at least stay together until our fifty days. This is a great significance for the next song as well as the factor that gave me extra (or at least some) significance in the break up.
The sixth song ‘Leaving’ is once again a realistic naming for the mood. This was the day that Jewell and I actually found ourselves separated, even though we hadn’t seen each other for the past couple of days or rather, Jewell disallowed it as she probably wasn’t strong enough for my last proper farewell.
Seventh on the list is one hundred days after we first met and fifty days after our initial break up. Dreaming to give her the CD for this day, in reality it wasn’t ready or I was afraid. In reality, this was the day I gave Jewell a call back, since we stopped talking after our break up deeming it significant.
Songs Added Related To Feelings
The next three tracks have no relevance to date but rather feelings that are happening in chronological order. Because feelings are still changing, the structure or songs could change, but as I have it now is how I feel at this particular moment.
Track eight being ‘Keep it on the Down low’ and ‘Just Hold On’ is sending across the image that I want to keep it quiet as well as asking Jewell to hold on and wait for the right time. Thus, manifesting the truth of what has been happening until Jewell finally told me a week or two ago that she can’t wait anymore. Rather, Jewell has changed it all around, giving herself more power. Not really lessening me, my power has diminished because I agreed to “Friendship over the phone”. Since that is the only place we collaborate, that is our reality within an abnormality.
The ninth song is the new track I have now. Because I was so distressed upon hearing the song, this is why it is the song for the moment signifying mostly what is true. The only doubt about the song in this pretense is that I’m supposed to be all alone. While that is not true, it will be one day. Everything else that is fabricated within the song will be worth its weight in gold.
The last song ‘Am I Dreaming’ glorifies an ending as well as the time from when Jewell and I supposedly reunite and the time after that.
This calls for a question mark question, “When will Jewell and I get back together?”
Well we know one thing… it’s a good way to end something in exclamation marks because I’m never sure where the full stop goes, before or after the exclamations. With this ending, I am having voice-overs noting the important dates and key factors that have been written by me from various poems.
The Dedications CD Superbly Designed
This CD has practically covered everything. If not within the songs, then within the artwork or wording. The only thing that hasn’t been covered is Jewell’s side of the endeavor, but only she can answer that one.
The artwork on the CD is outstanding. But even though it is color coordinated within its own pages, I didn’t really take into account what it would look like as a package. Because of this, the CD being grayscale, the backdrop of the CD (the Present being red and blue), the front cover (mostly black) and the inside of the cover which is green and brown and lays next to the CD once the cover is opened. None of these colors are coordinated. Although looking all over the place, once the eyes are focused, you get accustomed to the little glitch.
Sure I can rearrange everything but it’s almost impossible at this point. The most I could really do is change the format of the CD from grayscale and closer to its original colors to match the back cover, but I’m not sure.
As far as the back of the CD goes, it’s great. Nice little touches were writing SNIPER in Chinese letters thanks to my computer being able to type in that language. Not really sure if it says SNIPER. I’m sure it won’t lie to me, but there’s no real way to make sure.
Well as my night is ending and the time reaches 3:06am, it is time to work on my songs within the computer and then sort out another glitch with the artwork. Not really planning the folds that are made on the long portions. I lost 2 mm on the overall length. I know this doesn’t sound like much but without this, it makes the CD look more uncoordinated in color as you can see the background through the gaps.
They are my problems now, so I will leave you now and be off, but back to write another day.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
