Yesterday, Jewell and I got ready to have a good day in the city.
Jewell got ready. She had a lift to Campbelltown station.
Keith came to my house. We drove to Campbelltown station. He was going to cricket after that.
In Burwood With Jewell
Jewell and I first caught a train from Campbelltown train station to Burwood.
In Burwood we checked out some shops down there to see what would look good on her. The problem was that she wouldn’t try anything on.
Trouble In Hyde Park
Moving on, we caught the train to Town Hall. We tried to watch a movie but we needed ID to watch something, so nothing happened.
Buying Warren G’s new album, we walked to Hyde Park or some park like that. Sitting on a tree we stayed for the remainder of the day talking and occasionally embracing. We done that for 3 hours or more.
Today I see things in a different light. After what happened last night and today with Jewell I have started to think clearly.
Jewell kept turning me back in public. Respectfully she shouldn’t do that at all if she is really with me and likes me.
Jewell and I came home.
When I left Jewell it was at Pizza Hut. She got picked up by her mom.
Imad waited with us.
Pizza Deliveries With Imad
The rest of the day I spent with Imad and Simon doing deliveries.
I told Imad how everyone in the city and from the city back to Campbelltown was looking at Jewell and I. It didn’t click until Imad told me that Jewell and I look like we have a big age difference when we are together. Once again I am in this situation.
Then Imad and I got dropped off at my house.
Imad Turns Eighteen
It was Imad’s eighteenth birthday today. We didn’t really do anything for him.
Getting ready for a party, Ralf came to my house. All four of us left.
Lucas and Yunus were already there. I took some of my CDs down.
The Party Sours
This is when the first problem arose for the night.
Kofi and Zola didn’t have a problem hugging each other and being together. But when I approached Jewell, she acted like she didn’t want me there.
So I left and turned to the party.
Jewell was drinking, so I assumed that her mind was clouded, plus she is young and doesn’t fully understand. Dancing around, she didn’t come in at all.
Zola came in. Kofi also came in and stayed. Jewell stood outside.
Jewell Becomes Evasive
Jewell made it very hard for me to approach her and I didn’t like that. Not only that, but she was sitting down with this guy. He looked like he liked her. She was talking about something deep, like me, for instance.
Imad went over and talked to her but I don’t know what about. I didn’t ask but it would have been about me, to wizen her up.
Jewell would come with me when I asked her to but only when I asked her to. She would never come see what I was doing.
When Jewell did walk with me, leaving to be with Elli was on her mind. So I let her go.
Elli and Jewell went for a walk. Elli is feeding her information. They had something on their minds at the start of the night.
All The Wrong Signals
I partied until we couldn’t party.
Then we dropped off Imad.
I kissed my woman goodnight but she would stop before anything could really start off. Something was wrong.
When we came back for Lucas, Zola and Kofi walked out and talked to us. She even told Jewell I was out the front, but she didn’t come.
I was ready to call it quits then but I chose not to. I had to think clearly. I needed some show from Jewell.
Giving Jewell A Dressing Down
Ignoring what Zola told her, Jewell finally came out with Elli.
“Oh you’re still here? I didn’t know,” Jewell said.
She was drunk, but give me a break. Should I have been worried about her getting onto someone else that night?
She changed her whole chain of thinking when she came out to talk to me. She was all give for me. Zola must have said something to wake her up.
I told her what I thought of Elli that night, how Elli was being a dumb bitch.
Jewell’s problem right now is that she should have enough respect for me to come when I call her without a rejection, or I will put her back on her ass the way I found her.
I really do like being with her but if it comes down to it, then she’s out of my life just as quickly as she was in it.
Giving her a kiss, we left with Keith and the rest that were there for Randy Ranch.
Chilling With Simon
Nothing happened at Randy Ranch, so I got dropped off home.
Simon stayed at my house for that night for a short time. We talked about Jewell.
When we woke up, I played Warren G’s new album.
Chasing Up Jewell
I called Jewell’s work to tell her ring me when she’s on her lunch break. If she calls me then we will talk about what happened last night.
I want her to come to my house. I don’t want to be around there more than I have to for now.
The letter still hasn’t reached her house. If we don’t sort out what our problem is – which I don’t think would be a problem – then that letter will be a waste.
It’s time now to leave my special dome of tranquillity and maybe wait for Jewell to call me.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
