Musical Resolutions For The New Year – Mad Chaos: October 7, 1997

Cherish Your Youth While You Can

Thinking today coming to work, I thought to myself that I have a few more years to have fun, to muck around and be young.  I can change jobs, buy things and be as crazy as I want in these years because they will be what I remember in time.  

Jobs can come and go.  I won’t get that serious with one job.  I can’t.  The longest I could keep one job is six months and that’s a fair while for me.  Whereas, women might also come and go until I’ve decided that I want to settle down and my partner has for that matter.  But I can’t look at the job I have now and say I’m happy as I could be.

My Ambitions And Dreams

Last night I was thinking about my dreams, as Lyssa decided to look through my Diary and my songs.  I’ve found that my Diary is an interesting thing to people.  Once you read a page you can’t stop reading about my life.  

My ambition in life is to be known as a songwriter and earn my half million from that work.  Growing up and in the past year, I’ve learnt many things about life in general.  I’ve had lots of thoughts and have thought a lot.  

My mind has grown in interest and I’m edging to the point where I almost know what I want out of life.  

Now it’s all about getting it.  What I want is reachable.

Musicology Aspirations For The New Year

What I want to do this coming year is learn, study at TAFE and learn in Musicology.  Composition and Synthesizing are the key elements I have to emphasize on to improve my capabilities as a Score Writer.  In my music I can see big things but they can only be achieved if my mind is set on it.

Lyssa Sleeps Over The Night

This weekend was a long one.  It was Bielka’s birthday.  On Sunday I developed the pictures of Lyssa in the skirt.  Ali still has them in his car.  

Lyssa came over after the argument on Sunday took place.  

She woke me up from a sleep after she was knocking on my window for ten minutes, which I didn’t hear.  Sleepy, we both lay next to each other, had a talk, and then went to sleep.  We didn’t kiss, but hugged as we lay next to each other for the remainder of the night.  

Lyssa stayed the night.  

I’m not sure how we got up in the morning but I do remember getting onto her and having our fun.  

The rest of the day on Monday was spent together, mostly in my house.  We did travel to the shops to buy food to eat.  

Lyssa and I felt real good after last night. I’ll just say she let me tie her up.  

Next week the girls are going to The Temple nightclub, and another nightclub.  Lyssa is seeing Bad Boys in a couple of weeks.

Ali Has A Berserk Episode

We also travelled to Ali’s house with Penelope because she wanted to see him and had a car.

Ali also seems to be angry with Penelope.  On Friday night at Bielka’s they were supposed to have felt each other up and Penelope isn’t supposed to be the person to do that.  So she’s very worried about what she’s done.  She told Ali that it won’t go that far again.  

When Penelope went to tell him the news, he wasn’t happy.  He just walked away, and Penelope now thinks it’s over.  

Ali on the other hand had a fight with his mother yesterday.  He smashed his car window and hit his doors with the baseball bat fucking his Celica up.

The Things Lyssa Has Given Me

This month so far has been surprising.  I just hope there isn’t another day where Lyssa and I have an argument, but I’m afraid it will happen again.  It’s only a matter of time.  

Apart from everything she’s done for me she still hasn’t come up to me and just kissed me.  That’s what I need.  But still again, apart from all the things she hasn’t done there are plenty of things she had done for me.

Lyssa had given me something I’ve never had before, a feeling that I hold dear in my heart.