Lyssa Sleeps Over After A Long Talk – Mad Chaos: August 30, 1997

Today is the last day of the month.  For the last day there were lots of surprises and emotion last night and today.  

I went to sleep after talking to Lyssa on Thursday night.  

Martinson Engineering Work – Friday

Friday was my last day of the work week with Martinson Engineering.  Work was fine.  There were lots of things happening.  

What I found near the end of the day was lots of pressure to perform.  More stressful is that Ringo won’t be at work from Tuesday for the next week, so I’ll be alone pretty much with Salman.

Receiving my payment, I banked it, then had some lunch.

In the afternoon I worked later than usual time, and then left for home.  

The Cute Girl On The Bus

The bus was a fulfilling ride, as a guy waiting at the bus stop asked me for the time.  Then we just started talking.  

Sitting on the bus two seats behind a nice and sexy girl from Video Ezy (she had a work shirt) from Narellan, I noticed that she kept looking back at me.  

Noticing, every time she would try and look in my direction, I’d act like I wasn’t paying attention.  Thinking to myself I’ve already got someone that satisfies me, I didn’t pay attention.  

The Boys Stream Over

Coming home, I started to eat.  

Then Ali came over.  

Jett called to see if I wanted to go to the City.  

Calling up Lyssa I asked her if she would like to watch a movie.  I told her to bring some friends and Bielka for Jett.  

Ali picked up Penelope.  He dropped me off at Jett’s house while he went to Raby lookout with Penelope.  

Macarthur Square Cinemas With Lyssa

Meeting Lyssa, Bielka, Rita and Velda at the movies, I also chatted to Parker and Jaromir with their women who were also watching a movie.  Ralf, Keith and Tatton were also up there.  

But I didn’t pay attention to Keith.  He got upset, and we didn’t see him for the rest of the night.  

Lyssa and her friends came from the Catholic Club, where Lyssa had two drinks.  

It was alright at first because she amused me not being able to sit still in the movies.  After a while, I had to hold her down.  Then she settled and we watched the movie.  

While in the movies she went to the toilet with Velda for a long time, leaving me by myself.  What else made me angry was that when the movie was over, she left me behind and walked out with her friends.  

Coming out I felt rejected, so I avoided Lyssa.  I felt it safer.  

Ali was with Penelope in his car.  Lucas also came down.  

Lyssa jumped into Bielka’s car.  I thought if she wants to, then she can stay there.  Asking her to jump in with Bielka, I jumped in with Lucas, and we drove to Woodbine Macers.  

Everyone was having a good time except for me.

Being Snobbed By Lyssa

Feeling rejected by my woman, I stayed in Lucas’s car.  

We done stupid things, like taking off the handbrake and rolling the car into another parking spot next to some girls.  Starting the car, Lucas was lying down.  I steered the car while he accelerated without looking where he was.  

Lyssa was in the back of Bielka’s car making it hard for me to even talk to her, even though I tried more than once.  Walking to talk to “4 Play” the Latino’s of Campbelltown, Lyssa got out only to talk to Toby her guy best friend.  That made me angrier to think she wouldn’t try for me.

Ali left, and the girls started their car.  Asking where they were going, they all snobbed me off.  As I tried to give Lyssa a kiss, she acted like she didn’t really care, like she had a reputation to uphold with her friends.

Getting Frustration Out With Lucas

Getting very pissed off I jumped into Lucas’s car.  More fucked up was when we reached the lights and all of them snobbed us.  They were heading for Campbelltown so I got Lucas to turn around and go to Campbelltown.  They stopped at Caltex and parked there, Lucas dropped me off.

Coming home, I didn’t show any emotions to Lucas.  Getting inside I was fuming with anger.  

Running through my head was, “What did I ever do to Lyssa to deserve this treatment,” and,  “Why is she acting this way, why is she being so rude towards me, snobby?”  

Trying To Phone Lyssa

Picking up the phone I tried to call Bielka’s mobile phone to talk to Lyssa.  Once again, I was running to her.  For me to pick up the phone and call her was to show I had mercy.  It showed she can bend me long until I break.  

Her line was busy.  At 1am I figured she was trying to call me.

Lyssa Comes Over To Talk

Right then Bielka’s car was at the front of my house, and Lyssa walked in.  Lyssa had a feeling that something was wrong, so she stepped inside my room while her friends waited.  

Sitting on my chair, she sat on my waterbed.  I was too angry to look at her.  

Conversation started slowly.  But when I get angry I only speak in short sentences and pause for a long time to think before I asked another question.

Lyssa told me that she wasn’t aware of what she was doing.  She tried to come to me at Woodbine Macers when she actually walked to Toby.  That didn’t heal me at all.  

There were lots of questions that I asked of Lyssa for the half an hour we were conversing.  I told her that I don’t like being rejected, especially from my girlfriend, that a relationship is two people being together not apart, and making sacrifices and commitments for each other.  

For me to do all that I’ve done for Lyssa and then once again to get kicked in the face breaks my heart and my will.  

Not believing that I’d done anything wrong to her tonight, she told me that she felt since Wednesday that there was something wrong.  She had a vibe.  

Wednesday was the night we drove to Centennial Lookout and the night she had a bad dream of me.  

Lyssa Sleeps Over

After Lyssa and I had a talk, I calmed down somewhat.  Happy that Lyssa had consideration to come to my house to see what was wrong, the fact that she wanted to sort out problems made me happier.  It made me want to hold someone that night, talk to someone.  

Asking Lyssa to stay at my house, I told her to go outside and tell her friends to go home.  Against everything, she stayed because I asked.  

She came back inside.  I got ready to go to sleep.  Still quiet and upset, I turned the lights off.  Lyssa and I still talked.  She tried to soothe my pain by talking to me.  

Going to sleep at 2am, I found my waterbed was perfect in relaxation to sleep with someone.

Waking Up Next To Lyssa

Waking up at 7am, I noticed Lyssa next to me, as my music selection was playing in the background like I programmed.  Seeing Lyssa next to me, lying with me made me happy.  I gave her a kiss and woke her up.  

Once awake we started to hold each other, no talking but just that of which speaks of passion as the first day.  

For three hours we hugged, caressed and fondled each other, making me horny and happy.  

Mucking Around In Bed With Lyssa

Talking to Lyssa I told her that of all the sexual encounters I’ve had, which is only about three or four encounters in total.  Lyssa was amazed that I knew so much, as I also told her I’ve slept with people but I’ve never climaxed with a girl before.  

That changed this morning, as I climaxed twice with Lyssa during foreplay.  

We didn’t have sex and haven’t so far.  My encounter made me feel real good and ecstatic.  

The second encounter was messy.  I had to clean myself and the carpet that I messed up.  Now that Lyssa is my first with foreplay, I’m hoping after this week (to get over PMS and her cycle), I’ll be able to go all the way.

Using Internet In Campbelltown Library

Lyssa left my house at 1pm when Bielka and Penelope came to pick her up.  They gave me a lift to Campbelltown.  I ate and then walked to Campbelltown Library where I worked on my song lyrics and budget.  

Coming home at 4pm, Ali came over and we discussed tonight.  There is nothing legitimately planned yet, but for the last day of the month it had better be good.  

The Month Nears An End

Lyssa is going to Randy Ranch tonight and tomorrow.  We are going to another park somewhere with a blanket this time.  

As the last day of the month I say goodbye to thee for now.  It was a good month, a testing month with my friends, a growing experience still with Lyssa, and a pleasant experience now that I have money and am saving for a car.