Today was definitely the last day of the month. Thinking there were only thirty days this month in August, I was happy to find out there was just one more day.
Last night was very good to talk about. Ringing Jewell last night, I had a conversation with her for about an hour. The main part of the conversation once again was Zola and Kofi on the verge of breaking up. Jewell also cut her hair short looking like Kiki’s do.
Getting off the phone with her, Ali came over.
Woodbine McDonald’s With Lyssa
We picked up Imad and then drove to Woodbine Macers.
Lyssa, Penelope, Velda and Rita were there, so we got out to talk to them.
Lyssa was more open and affectionate towards me once more. It’s good to know that she would appreciate me enough to try and make things work better between the both of us.
Lucas met up with us. I sat with him eating chips and sharing them with Lyssa and her friends.
Having Strong Feelings For Lyssa
For me and Lyssa to be seeing each other for just over two months, we have a lot of feelings for each other. Lyssa has much more feelings for me than anyone else she has ever been with, and I feel the same.
Her longest relationship was four months but it wasn’t the best. I want this relationship to be the best for her. I want to be remembered in good terms.
I’m just wondering how long it will take for me to tell her that I love her.
Love is a grand topic. I’m not saying I don’t have those feelings for her. There is a deep liking for her that if I lost her then I would be broken.
I’ve never told someone I’ve loved them. That’s always been hard for me to grasp. Now, I’m not about to tell Lyssa that there is love there because it doesn’t feel right for me to say those strong words.
Cruising With Ali
After Woodbine Macers the chicks left for Randy Ranch. We stayed and talked to some Lebanese there.
Lucas and Imad left early because it was boring. Everyone else was at the Catholic Club. That left it just me and Ali again for another night.
Driving around, we had nothing to do until Ralf called up and we picked him up.
Driving to the back of Pizza Hut, we knew Rory’s car was parked inside and he was at Randy’s Ranch. We opened up the Pizza Hut garage door. Taking Ali’s car keys we opened up Rory’s car door. We were going to rip his whole car sound system but decided upon only taking his CD’s in the case.
Driving to my house I picked the CDs I liked, and picked some out for Lyssa. Ali and Ralf took some CDs.
Picking Lyssa Up From Randy Ranch
Then we headed to meet the girls. The girls were at Chevy’s. When they came out I gave Lyssa her little present. That put a smile on everyone’s face.
Then we sat in Ali’s car to listen to the CDs.
Last night was a good night. I came home at 4am.
Watching A Movie With Lyssa
Having a long, lengthy sleep, Ali woke me at 1pm because the girls were coming over to watch a movie. Planning to take them to Wollongong instead, it started raining, so we opted for plan A.
On the way to my house Lyssa was freaking out that it was wet and we were driving. Lyssa was having flashbacks, as I was looking at her. She had her eyes closed as if she was praying. It turned me off, but also worried me somewhat.
Lyssa found a new liking for me as we were watching the movie. Not as usual, she would take the advantage to put her hand around me and caress me, cuddle me and lay with me. She was affectionate, and that made me happy. But also, I was wondering what made the shift to this liking?
Dropping the girls off, Ali dropped me off.
Budgeting To Repay Credit Card Debt
The fact of the matter is that I have to work tomorrow for the whole week. The way I see it, two more weeks to pay off my credit card debt and then four weeks to save $500 for a start on a loan.
With a loan for $3,000 over two years, I’ll buy a $2,000 car and spend a grand on a system. The money in the bank will be either for an amplifier or savings for insurance and registration.
Right now I’m tired so it’s beddy bye time for this month. It was a good month.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
