Buying My First X-Rated Porn Video – Mad Chaos: May 25, 1998

Just a couple more days until this month has gone.  Before this month ends I have to take some things into consideration.  For one, Lyssa doesn’t want to take a day off work just to visit the Novotel so we are thinking of changing the date to an earlier or later weekend where we can use it on Saturday night.  The other thing is my music.  This month has gone past and all that has been down pat is the instrumental.

Resuming Production On New Song

For reasons I will explain soon, I didn’t go to my session today at ‘Nu Town Studios’  but will be going tomorrow.  If everything goes to plan, I will have the instrumental recorded onto DAT near the end of next month with the guitar piece and the intro I have devised.  Within that time I have been looking for some vocals for my work.  

I have had some good luck with placing an advertisement in the ‘Drum Media’.  What turned out to be only one call on the day has turned out to be five calls now I haven’t answered to yet.  I received some calls on Friday, which I probably didn’t comment about, and two more today.  Who knows, this could keep going.

If I don’t find the right voices through what I’m doing I will up my search to also add the ‘Musicians Placement Service’.  I used them once before when I didn’t really know what they did.  Now, they have sent me a letter in the mail offering free subscription for a month, only if I am a band or a songwriter.  I might take the opportunity to call them up tomorrow before leaving and plan a search for some top voices.  Also, for the voices I still have the ‘Musicians Union’ to fall on.  But lately, I can’t really trust people in the music industry.

Jessie and Gavyn from Nu Town Studio’s are turning me off the industry single handedly.  Sure they helped me get my instrumental going but when it came to the crunch, they only care about money, not about Australian Musical Talent.  When it came to money they overcharged me somewhat.

Now, tomorrow I have to go back for two hours to just fix up the mistakes that Jessie had placed there.  The instrumentation that I have there is great except the stings don’t sound real enough.  Now I hope I can fix the problems within the two hours I’m there.  When all that is done I will ask for them to print me out a score of the guitar piece for my personal records.  From there they will give the piece to their guitarist to play.  In a couple of weeks when it’s time to clean up the work, we will record him live.

Looking For A New Recording Studio

Lately, I’ve been looking around for a new studio to record the vocals at.  I’ve had one or two places I’ve had my eye on, cheap, efficient and well equipped with Digital Recording gear.  A block of time will cost me almost nothing, which is great.  When that is recorded voices will be overdubbed onto the instrumental in the right places, muck around with the reverb and chorus switches a little, and there you have it, my very own song.

When the production is finished I will have it recorded onto CD and will keep the DAT copy.  This whole process will cost me just over $1,000 from now including printing the CD cover and the burning costs of all the other tracks onto the CD.

All this and I haven’t even mentioned the fact that I have to also record the voiceovers for the last song and for my poem before the CD and last song ends.  I’m hoping I can fit that into the time I will be recording the voices and might even use the voices.  If there is not enough time, a new endeavor and journey is set to take place.

Now to start the day off, let me just say that I went to sleep at 1am last night.  That was fairly early for me but it didn’t take me long to doze off after setting the alarm.  

Lyssa Wants To Meet

Around 9am in the morning Lyssa gave me a call.  I knew something was wrong when I received a call from her so early in the morning.  Lyssa told me she had been throwing up in the morning and was very worried.  After being worried for her I instantly thought to myself that now I won’t have the chance to travel to Newtown to work on my instrumental some more.

Lyssa wanted to travel to Campbelltown later in the day and wanted me to join her.  Knowing I couldn’t complain, as I supposedly had nothing to do but buy shoes, I accepted.  Lyssa could sense I was upset about something but she was alright when she hung up the phone to get ready.  Placing the phone back on its holder, I cussed a couple of times and then lay back in bed thinking hard.

Since Lyssa wanted to meet in Campbelltown at noon, there was no chance I could travel to the City and then come back in time.  With that option drained I thought to myself that I could visit Campbelltown with Lyssa.  Then instead of visiting her house (which she would have most probably asked), I skip it and then travel to the City and back home before it starts getting dark.  Since those choices weren’t working for me regarding Nu Town Studios I thought I could still visit the City and buy myself that video I was talking about.

A Scheduling Conflict With Nu Town Studios

Jumping out of bed I had a shower to wake myself up.  I was angry that my alarm didn’t sound once again.  Putting some clothes on and drying my hair I thought to call Jessie and tell her that I won’t be coming in for the day or maybe not even for late.  I gathered since they closed late every day I should go later in the day.  But Lyssa and I would probably talk on the phone tonight so that was out.  Deciding not to call Jessie because she wouldn’t be there yet I packed some extra change for a phone call later in the day.

Placing my lyrics carefully folded in my jacket pocket anyway, I headed for Campbelltown by catching a bus.  When in Campbelltown I headed for the bank.  Taking my money out I headed inside to deposit $120 in the bank.  After that I headed for the station where I was to meet with Lyssa.  Waiting a couple of minutes Lyssa showed up.

Macarthur Square Hangout With Lyssa

Lyssa and I started walking our way to a train where we caught it to Macarthur Square where we then headed to the Food Court.  Having not eaten for the day I was hungry as.  Lyssa bought herself a roll and I bought myself a huge bowl of Fettuccine.  

Sitting down on the seats we both took our time with the food.  I found it hard to guzzle down all the food on my plate even though I was hungry.  Lyssa told me more about how she was sick this morning and what doctor we were seeing after we finished eating and shopping.

Finishing our food we walked around, as Lyssa looked in some shops for a jumper for herself.  Every now and again we could come to a shoe store where I looked for a new pair of shoes to no avail.  Lyssa looked at jumpers with halter neck tops and liked them more in succession.  I couldn’t tell the difference in any of them.  What got me upset was after Lyssa came out of one of the stores I knew that she was going to be high from shopping.  Sitting down next to me she asked me if she could borrow some money to buy the jumper.  Straight away I told her no but thought I sounded rude and stingy so I changed my mind.

What I was so angry about was that all my money had been planned and anything out of it would mean I would have to dip into money from my Credit Card, which I didn’t want.  Thinking how selfish I was I offered Lyssa the money, but because I was so rude about it at first she refused my offer.  I felt bad from then on because of my actions.

I also thought, “Why can’t Lyssa wait two days until she receives her money?”  

That’s a problem of Lyssa’s.  When there’s money around and Lyssa can get a hold of it, she will and then pay me back.  Lyssa just sees money there.  She doesn’t see what I am using it for (obviously).

A Doctor’s Visit For Lyssa

Both of us were not very talkative after that episode, as we made our way to a doctor for Lyssa where Duffy Brothers is between Macarthur Square and Campbelltown (where the new bridge has been built).  

Walking into the surgery we had a talk to the doctor.  After Lyssa explained how she had migraines some days and felt sick others and only in the mornings the doctor offered to take a urine test for pregnancy and something else.  Lyssa went to get her sample done.  Then handing in the urine we waited patiently.  Lyssa was worried about the results.  I was just laid back.  I knew what they would be.

The tests were done in a few minutes and they were positive for Lyssa and I.  Lyssa was relieved.  Getting a Doctor’s Certificate we left with no real help or sign of why Lyssa is being sick these days.  The only thing the doctor could come up with was the pill that Lyssa was on.  He asked her to quit the pill for a month, see if that stops her sickness.

A Trip To Duffy Bros

Lyssa and I were alright now, as we walked into Duffy Brothers where I bought a big drink for a small amount of money.  Lyssa bought herself some sweets from the bread shop.  Then we headed to a shoe shop in the vicinity.  What I can’t understand is that Lyssa wants to get skinny, she wants to buy fitness videos and start training but when we are together, she is always eating bad combinations of food and not really exercising.  When she was in the doctor’s surgery facing away from me, I had seen how her body was starting to lose its touch.  At the same time, I was somewhat detracted from Lyssa because she would let her body deteriorate.  

Leaving the shopping center I grabbed a straw from a shop thinking nothing of it.  One of the Chinese workers there asked me if I had bought something from the shop.  When I told him I haven’t he replied I can’t take a straw unless I have bought something.  Giving him a look, I placed the straw back while two people being served were laughing (most probably at him).  Lyssa made it clear to everyone that it was a joke, as we made our way out of the center.

Lyssa Overstays Her Welcome

From there we walked to Queen Street where Lyssa and I looked at some more shops but both of us could not find what we had wanted.  I told Lyssa that if I couldn’t find anything I would travel to the City and go shoe shopping there.  Lyssa thought she was being abandoned when I said that, so I asked her to come to the City with me but not really meaning it.

Catching a train to Leumeah Lyssa thought about it and thought she would come.  Starting to get upset I found that my whole reason to leave for the City was to be alone to buy a video, but now I would be there shopping for shoes, probably for half an hour.  Lyssa then told me on the condition that I buy a top for her in the City.  Kindly, I told her that I don’t have money to spend.  Lyssa got upset and no longer wanted to head for the City.

Deciding To Make A Sacrifice

With the change I had left over, Lyssa bought me a concession ticket to the City.  Then we sat waiting for a bus.  Feeling bad, I told Lyssa that I would go to her house because there was only half an hour to shop anyway.  To her that meant something and she was then happy.  The only problem with that idea was that I still had a valid train ticket that I couldn’t use.  Adult Book stores in the City were open until very late.  So to remedy that problem, when I left Lyssa’s house to go home I would visit the City, buy my movie and then head home.  Perfect plan.

Lyssa and I caught our bus to Lyssa’s house.  Then we sat down to watch television, as I read the Sunday paper and prepared something to eat for myself.  Lyssa came and sat on my back while I was reading the paper to be playful.  Lyssa and I were happy in each other’s company.  Jumping up off the ground Lyssa and I were playful for a while until I microwaved my dinner.  Having something to eat, I told Lyssa that I would have to leave before it started to get dark.

The Sneaky Trip To Sydney

Spending two hours at Lyssa’s house I left at 5:30pm, giving Lyssa kisses at her door and then waving her goodbye until I couldn’t see her up the road.  

From there I started jogging to the train station and then headed for Campbelltown in hopes of catching an express train to the City.  That plan didn’t work, as I caught the next train to Glenfield to wait there.  The next East Hills train took some time to arrive but didn’t disappoint me when we arrived in Sydney at 7pm.

Jumping off at Central Station I started walking fast to reach my destination.  On the way an Asian businessman stopped me with a young Asian lady.  He sounded like he was fresh from Asia, as he asked me if I was looking for work.  In a big hurry for time I tried to listen to him, as he told me of a building where he is now situated.  Pointing out a huge building right near Central Station I started getting interested, as the lady told me there were plenty of new positions available.  Happy to take their business card I also wrote down my name and number on one of their cards and then continued on my journey.  Tomorrow I will give them a call before leaving and see what is happening with that company for a position.  The company is called “VBS Finance” and is already situated in different areas.

Buying Porn Videos From Club X

Walking into the nearest Club X I could find I walked upstairs to be submerged by a great amount of porn.  Briskly walking around I then centered on the movies available.  My eyes mostly centered on the more expensive European counterparts.  After some time I chose my movie.  Paying I headed back out, concealing the movie in my jacket.

Holding the movie with my hands in my jacket pockets I headed back for the station with good time.  The train was available very quickly.  Jumping on the train I was happy with what time I was heading for Campbelltown.

Creating My Alibi 

Reaching Campbelltown at 8:30pm I ran to the other bus stop to wait for my bus.  Jumping on I thought everyone could see the movie through the jacket and make their own assumptions but I don’t think they could.  Reaching my house I tried calling Lyssa straight away, but the phone was busy.  Mum told me of the people that had called as I walked upstairs to have something to eat.

Having only around one hour of a lapse of time, I thought I could come up with the excuse that I was stopped by Ralf.  Calling Lyssa again, this time the phone rang.  Lyssa picked up after a while and I immediately apologized for ringing late.  The reason I gave was that Ralf held me up talking to me for an hour or more.  At the start I must have sounded nervous missing words and arranging them wrong.  Now I realize, Lyssa was doing that when I blamed her of talking to someone other than Velda that night, just the same.

Lyssa and I talked on the phone for half an hour or more about me traveling to the City tomorrow to buy shoes and visit her.  As the conversation flowed I became less nervous and less talkative.  I found when I was nervous that I talked loudly and also talked loudly when I didn’t need to so that there would be no spaces in our conversation.  Feeling bad about lying I couldn’t just come out and tell Lyssa I bought a movie from the City behind your back out of curiosity.  Lyssa would get upset and take it personally.

Buying an X-Rated movie has eased my curiosity somewhat.  I don’t think there will come another day when Lyssa and I will both enjoy adult movies together, but some day, there will be someone else who will enjoy the curiosity just as much as me.

As the time ticks on past midnight already I have to get some rest for a day in Newtown tomorrow.  Jessie called my house today so there must have been some resentment of me not showing up today.  I didn’t really think that my two hours were that important to them but I guess seeming they’re after the money and they don’t have much work to do right now, they need me to be drained.  That can be done tomorrow.  I know I will be telling my Diary all the latest news as it happens.