Purchasing a 60-Stack CD Player
I didn’t go to gridiron today because I bought a 60-stack CD holder. I screwed it into the side of my huge wardrobe where the door is. So when you walk in, the wooden 60-stack CD holder is in your face.
Imad was at my house.
I talked to him because we needed to talk to each other.
Jewell called me tonight at 8pm.
While talking to Jewell, Imad left to give us some time to ourselves. That’s where I got to my story.
Mind Games With Jewell
She was alone tonight.
We were playing games on the phone.
I told her, “I know this guy and girl that kept playing games with each other. But they both know what the other was thinking. The truth is they both liked each other.”
Then I asked her, “Do you think that the two should keep playing games or tell each other the truth?”
She knew I was talking about each other.
She told me, “I think they should tell each other the truth.”
Then I told her some truth.
I asked, “Why do you think I keep calling you and not your friends?”
She said, “Because you want to be my friend. More than that? You like my company.”
“Liking is part of it,” I told her.
Jewell Needs Time
I then asked her to give me some clues.
The one clue she gave me was “Time.”
Clues, clues, clues is all we gave each other tonight on the phone, Jewell and me. I think I know where the situation is going.
She wants to take her time and see how things go. That’s what I want from her. I just need to show her that’s what I want. I have to always be in the picture, don’t let anyone else in there that might take her away, and she should do the same.
But we shouldn’t push each other too much.
I’m pushing too much. I want her to call me almost every day, and I want her to go places with me all the time. I should back off and ease it more.
I have my whole life ahead of me to think about her and me.
I think part of me is giving out the wrong message saying I only want her for one thing but the truth is I want her for a very long time, for a relationship, and not for sex. I just want Jewell to know that and not be scared off by it.
Talking Relationships With Imad
Imad and I talked about what Jewell and I discussed.
For the first time in a while Imad and I had a mad conversation. We blew each other’s minds. It was shit at the start but then got to make sense as we both dipped into our minds and opened the conversation doorways.
We talked about Imad going to Dina and mucking around with the rest of them.
We also talked about Jewell and I getting serious.
Imad said, “If she keeps calling you and asks you small things like your name and to spell your address, then no matter what, she is interested in you. You have to take that interest and turn it around so that she doesn’t take advantage of you and you don’t take advantage of her.”
Right now she is in control because I don’t want her to shrug off on me. So I watch my words carefully. I am myself, but she’s more herself, but I still win all the mind games.
Through Heaven And Earth
Imad and I have known each other for almost 7 years now. In that time we have become best friends and we understand each other a lot. He says he doesn’t understand me, that I confuse him because he can’t get used to me.
We’ve watched each other grow up and we have been through heaven and earth in the time we’ve known each other.
Friendships like this don’t come often, and no one else in the group comes close to what me and Imad have as a friendship.
If someone ever reads this then you know that in ten years I’ll still be best friends with Imad and we’ll still understand each other and grow up together the way it was meant to be, as best friends.
Making Plans With Jewell
I’m supposed to call Jewell tomorrow but I think I won’t do that to see if she calls me on Friday. That’s a good idea. I want to see if she’s interested in me as much as I am in her. This would be a good test to see how she would react.
I know that I’d get her all confused and I’d win the mind game, always one step ahead.
Plans On Keith’s Mobile Phone
I might be buying Keith’s mobile phone off him for $60. I’m going to apply for a credit card from a bank, but I’ll have to do my shopping around tomorrow on my lunch break.
Buying Lethal Injection by Ice Cube
Lethal Injection by Ice Cube is one of the CDs I bought today. It is pretty good so far. I’ll be listening to it for some time to come.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
