The Cause For Extreme Anxiety
Lyssa was the one that destroyed my relationship with Ali. She may not be vindictive, but amongst us all, tucked away deep inside her sneering smiles, she was the evil one. Not only was she selfish, but also all through her good intentions, she always had bad intentions.
Call me obsequious but when it comes to conversation with normal strangers these days, the unneeded compliments are usually what come out of my mouth all thanks to the aggregation of the self-conscious psyche over the years.
Maybe the cause for my extreme anxiety is the fact that smoking marijuana has taken me over. Withdrawal is extremely hard to accomplish, and the longer you struggle, the more anxious you become.
Kicking The Drugs Habit With Material Escapes
Motivation is the key factor. You can either say, “fuck it,” relax and go with the flow or you can actually kick the habit and return to a life without the self-conscious. There is a way out however, and it comes with me learning to juggle a compromise between socializing and time to myself.
The first step is buying a used car. With the money already in hand, and my driving license won today, the motivation to do so is well behind me. Then there are other things needed to keep me mentally happy. As usual, they are material escapes.
Next comes the MP3 player, a new wardrobe, an upgrade to my computer process and small refurbishing of my speakers.
Something other than drugs has to be there to give me confidence. These seem like the first steps to substituting my drug habit with more moral distractions.
The Pioneer That Circumnavigated The Universe
Imagine being the first person ever to circumnavigate the universe. How mad would that be! One of the greatest achievements of mankind. Like a sonic boom when you break the sound barrier, so too could be the outcome of humans finding a technology that could catch up with an expanding universe, and ultimately, pass it by, thus, causing a “sonic boom” of particles into an unexplored finite space. We would then literally be beating the clock, and cheating our own ultimate deaths.
Imagine if we could escape the “big bang” theory of implosion. What if in using this theory, we could travel beyond the fabrics of the known universe and into vacuous space, like the anomaly in quantum physics where we break out of our own imprisonment, and in some unknown way launch out like a pod beyond its contractual grasp.
Could the constant stretching of space matter create an aging of our universe? Would you literally stay the same age forever if there was no compressive stress on the mass of atoms that comprise an entity, which by the laws of physics would stay intact while space continued to stretch?
The Theory Of Ageing & Space
My theory is that the friction caused by this duress-like stretching of atoms through space is cause for an anomaly called aging.
Ours bodies eventually give up as a whole when the universe’s constant expansion (although oblivious to it) wears out the electromagnetic component of atoms, their virtual life.
Another important question this poses is whether (created by the anomalistic nature of galaxies in the theory of time-space continuum) one could create an environment of suspended animation within the confines of a galaxy whose atomic density hinders the very mechanism of time continuum, thus, preventing the abrasive properties of collective atoms over time.
Could our galaxy work its way towards an atomic equilibrium, where time itself (outside of our galaxy) would continue expanding with the fabric of space whilst leaving us atomically oblivious and therefore less affected by the abrasive properties of an expanding universe of galaxies, like a matter-made force field.
Logically, one would assume that atoms within our galaxy would go through a great deal of stress if our atmosphere were less dense and therefore, more commodious to the forces of spatial expansion.
The Theory Of Time Travel & Black Holes
Another theory of mine is that once we have learnt to escape the outskirts of our galaxy, time travel would be possible. There we would be ruled by the quantum physics.
The universe always has some term of mobility attached to it.
Even when you are not moving, time is passing you by, or even transporting you to greater expanses of space as with the “balloon theory”. Traveling through the outskirts of space would be like being overpowered by the vacuum of space whose trajectory is always an explanatory one.
Black holes could be the tears and “big bangs” of other parallel universes. When stars collapse under their own weight, they form holes in the fabric of space. What is in the absolute middle of a black hole and does the implosive qualities of a black hole (heating up to millions of degrees and forming the densest of materials) an actual beginning of another expanse of universe?
When a black hole reaches its state of infinity (when atomic density cultivates to a point where there is no space and when the mass of that density is great enough), the death of a black hole commences, and creates a portal to a parallel universe, one which, via the black hole, creates an implosive “big bang” starting off life in another parallel of space. Therefore, there is a certain latitude to the amount of vacuous portals out there, each leading to a new dimension of space.
Could there actually be parallel worlds to ours, and are the gateways actually through black holes? “Star Gate” was actually a smaller model of this theory, a smaller synthesized version that incorporates the working properties of black holes.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
