It’s been a day of utmost boredom, and there’s still an hour or two until I leave.
Fantasizing About Lyssa
This morning I woke up nice and fresh though with a neck ache. As I sat there and massaged the pain, I thought to myself “Lyssa could be doing this for me, and more erotically.” Yes… Today is Fantasy day, the time of month I think about erotic things. I’ve never really had a fantasy day but I’ve got lots of fantasies to think about these days.
Martinson Engineering Work – Monday
Leaving for work I had to rush to the Narellan bus. I felt let down that the girl that’s usually on the bus and lights up the rest of my working day wasn’t there. I was empty.
What’s more, Ringo wasn’t in today. I thought that would be good. It would have been good if I’d brought lots of my own work in, because as far as today goes, the only work I’ve received is calling out to Mrs. M. that Salman’s in the toilet while the phone was ringing.
Making Arrangements For Time Off
I’ve explained to Mrs. M. also that I should be having the 27th and 28th off for the Year 12 Formal. Also deciding, whatever Lyssa wants to do after the year 12 formal she can. If she wants to visit nightclubs, I’ll go home with my friends or have Lucas and the rest of the boys meet up with me. She’d feel empty if we just took a limousine home, so if she chooses to visit a nightclub I might even go, but not to the same place as her.
There’s not much choice for Lyssa and I after the year 12 formal. If she goes to the City I can’t go home with anyone. Everyone apart from Ali and Penelope are visiting the City. Penelope just wants to be alone with Ali.
Thinking of Lyssa plenty within this day, I’ve thought of what I can do with the money that I’m not spending on a limousine ride home. Deciding on a better alternative, I’m renting a motel room with a spa unit for our 5 month Anniversary.
Hunting For Luxurious Motel Room
Sexual thoughts ran untiringly in my mind as I drooled on the options of another night with Lyssa, just the two of us, her in lingerie, light wine, enjoying a nice private spa bath, a nice mood and all the noise we want to make. I’ve ordered booklets from all places around the Campbelltown area for motel rooms. I’m spending a mint for a perfect night.
Lyssa and I might be visiting the lingerie shop in Penrith as early as this weekend. If that’s the case, I can’t wait.
The Orgasm Article In Cosmopolitan Magazine
What’s made me more sexually active is that I bought Cosmopolitan today because Lyssa and I had seen an article about orgasms. Reading a broad spectrum of articles, I found myself more and more turned on and interested in different techniques and methods of what we do behind closed doors. Lyssa will be more interested when the time comes also.
I believe that the night we hire a hotel room will be much greater in experience than her year 12 formal night. Just to think, we can do whatever we want, be as messy as we want, and imagine what we want in the meantime.
All this erotic desire is getting to me, making me think more and more for the moment. Horny is the word that works. I’m so pumped up that I’m going to give Lyssa a call soon and ask her over to my house tonight.
A Dull Workplace Dims Enthusiasm
The day at Martinson Engineering has undoubtedly been boring, as all other days are anyway.
This concludes my theory that a dull workplace is detrimental to being experimental.
If my room had a window, I wouldn’t be stuck in my artificial workplace with no real light. If I had fresh air apart from the recycled mess that I get, maybe it would be better. If all my work didn’t mean nothing but numbers and long sentences to me, maybe it could be my job, but it’s not.
I just can’t wait for this day to finish and for me to let out some sexual frustration by at least seeing the person that fills up what otherwise would be empty.
Longing For A Musical Career
But there is one more thing before I sign off. My Diary will be dominated by entries from work for a long period up until at least February. What I know is that I want a car.
I’ve dearly been thinking of my songs to be published. Thinking that if I never publish them, the world will be without another idea that could have soothed the changing heart, or could have warmed the lasting love.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
