Spending a lot of time with your girlfriend sure does show in the long run. Because we’ve been spending all these days together and all this time with having little arguments, they have built up. That’s why I’m at home writing in my Diary when I should be at Lyssa’s house.
Watch Spice Girls Movie With Lyssa
On Saturday morning after Lyssa was finished having her shower we made our trek to the bus stop and then caught the bus to Campbelltown. From there we caught another bus to Lyssa’s house where her mum had already left.
The time was past midday. Lyssa and I were happy to have the house to ourselves. I made myself something to eat and we lay on Lyssa’s mum’s bed. We rented Spice World the Spice Girls movie. We had put that into the video to watch for the night.
There Lyssa and I were sitting on the sofa hand in hand watching the movie. The Spice World movie as you would have guessed was based on the Spice Girl’s singing. It was boring with no storyline.
Lyssa Shares Easter Present
Lyssa had received some Easter Eggs from her mum before she had left, as we sat there eating. Lyssa then chopped me as I thought she didn’t get me anything for Easter. She brought out a CD that she had bought for me. The album was called Forever by Damage.
I took out Lyssa’s Sound System and hooked it up in the kitchen. Playing the CD, I also tested all of Kuper’s speakers because a week or two ago I had made them stop making noise. I thought I had blown Kuper’s speakers, but hooking them up to Lyssa’s system I found there was no problem with any of them.
A Candlelit Bath With Lyssa
Later that night we heated up a bath and both sat in it with candles lit and lights off. Lyssa had her underwear on because she was protective of how her body looked. Later in the night the top portion came off, but that’s all because Lyssa was embarrassed.
Getting out the soap I started on Lyssa’s back. But that was cut short by a knock on the door. Lyssa went to check. Coming back she told me Colton (from across the street) came over and that he was coming back in half an hour.
Colton Comes Over
Lyssa and I jumped out of the bath and started getting ready for Shawn to come over. I was dreading his arrival, as I was planning this weekend for ages and I wanted as much time with Lyssa as I could have.
Colton wasn’t that bad when he came over. We spent over an hour talking to him. We sat in the lounge room. Then the other half was spent out the back while he was having a couple of smokes. He left after an hour or two.
Lyssa Teased With Racy Lingerie
Then Lyssa had changed into some special laced lingerie for the occasion. Tidying up the house, I ran into the bedroom where Lyssa was waiting. Her face was showing an expression that said, “Come here and pleasure me”. Not minding, I was the one to start, even though I had all these things I wanted Lyssa to do to me that night.
Lyssa and I have been planning these three nights for over a month. From what I’m about to say, they have fallen apart. There I continued to satisfy Lyssa without her even asking, but when it came to my turn, she was less giving. I made a couple of suggestions for what we could do that night, but it was becoming apparently clear to me from the “No” answers that she didn’t want to make too much effort for this night.
Lyssa wasn’t in the mood to be treating me only, and it showed when she didn’t do much. Because of that I wasn’t that excited down there, to see my whole weekend being routine instead of exploration. Lyssa had told me ‘yes we should’ to all these little things I wanted to have done but it was making sense that now she was having second thoughts about all of them.
An Oversold Sexy Easter Weekend
Taking a step back, I was angry to see I was doing everything Lyssa wanted and she wasn’t. For the month we were talking about the weekend, it seems that Lyssa was only getting me heated up for nothing, getting my hopes up.
We had a little argument because I started losing my momentum. Then Lyssa turned her back to me thinking she had done something wrong. That ruined it for me, knowing that she hadn’t even tried (hard or well enough) to keep me up. She was just going through the motions waiting for her turn.
Because of that, it led to a chain reaction. After telling Lyssa I was hungry, she told me to get out and make something. It seemed to me that Lyssa was so pressured about what we were to do that she didn’t want to have this extravagant weekend. So I did get out of bed.
In that time I was away, it gave Lyssa enough breathing space to get out of the mood. For her it was nothing. She could probably go a couple of days without sex, but men need it, and I was getting angry.
Frustrated, I didn’t want to jump back in bed, but for her sake, I did. That’s when I knew that Lyssa didn’t have any plans on doing anything further. We relished on the fact that I jumped out of bed.
After some arguing, Lyssa went to sleep. I was awake for a couple of hours before I closed my eyes. I was so angry that nothing happened that night. I was out of my mind.
Lyssa doesn’t understand that I need that stimulation.
I don’t think she realizes that for a normal couple, having sex once a week (if we’re lucky) is not as much as is deemed regular. Lyssa always tells me I think about sex. Maybe the reason is because we don’t get enough?
A Huge Fight Erupts
This morning we woke up, both of us weren’t talking to each other. That carried on until Lyssa had her shower and I jumped up to have something to eat. Jumping back in bed Lyssa watched the Spice World movie again.
For about two hours not a word was said. We started talking about the night before, and then started arguing. The argument got so bad that I wanted to go home and called Imad. Lyssa made me hang up the phone while Dina was getting Imad. I got so pissed off at her I started yelling. Lyssa ran off and had a cry in her room, as I started putting my shoes on.
Lyssa came back out and told me not to go, as we had another argument. We tried to sort out the problem and then Leah called on the phone. Lyssa had a good old laugh with her on the phone for over an hour, as I sat waiting in the living room. I was angry that Lyssa didn’t treat the call with urgency to hang up quicker. Because of that, I called Imad back up, which he was coming to pick me up soon.
Imad Picks Me Up
Lyssa and I worked out the problem and how Lyssa didn’t realize she wasn’t trying hard enough last night. Imad arrived quickly so I gave Lyssa a kiss and left for home how she wanted me.
“Are you going to come back,” Lyssa asked.
“I didn’t know yet,” I told her.
“Are we still going to visit the Easter Show tomorrow,” Lyssa asked.
“I don’t know. It depends if we work things out,” I said.
Dina was in the car with Imad as we left for my house. Taking my “Damage” CD, he gave me a lift to his house. Then they left to visit someone for Easter.
Lyssa Stands Me Up On Easter
At home I jumped on the computer and started working on my CD. Lyssa called me shortly after that. She was on the phone to Leah when I tried calling a couple of seconds before that.
Lyssa and I were still arguing over the phone.
“Can I come over,” I then asked.
“I think it is best that you didn’t,” she told me.
I got very angry with that because then I found out that she was inviting Nikita over her house for that night, and then Constantine for the next night. So there was my whole weekend of sexual activity wasted because she had invited friends over. What was supposed to be a great weekend for just Lyssa and I (and we weren’t supposed to make any other plans) turned out to be a bitch night for Lyssa.
Right now I’m really pissed off because Lyssa went out to do that. Even after I told her I should come over and before she invited Nikita, she went along with her plan. I think Lyssa didn’t want me over so she wouldn’t have to perform, apart from the obvious. So while she is going to have companionship tonight, I’m going to have shit.
It’s Easter, all my friends are out and I’m at home to be bored shitless all by myself. Lyssa has really pissed me off by inviting her friends. Lyssa is not calling me back tonight and I’m not going to be calling Lyssa for a while. I really wanted to be at Lyssa’s house tonight, but I won’t.
Planning To Call Jewell
Tonight, if I don’t get into contact with anyone I’m going to look at the new photos I had developed yesterday at Campbelltown of Nikita’s birthday in the Caravan Park. If things really get bad tonight I’m going to call Jewell since it’s been a while since I have called her. It will be a relief to actually talk to her tonight if I get the chance.
Right now Nikita will be over Lyssa’s house and so will Colton. They will be having a great night together. I hope Lyssa won’t be thinking of me tonight. I’m really pissed off that it had to happen this way.
Tomorrow night, out of pride, I won’t be going over to Lyssa’s house, mainly because she has already made plans with Constantine. Even though we had etched this weekend a month ago, she still decided to change the plans.
I can tell that tonight I’m going to be so bored, nothing to do, but I will make it a good night.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
