Lyssa In A Rage Threatens Breakup – Mad Chaos: January 26, 1998

Today is Australia day, I’m Australian but don’t really care about the significance of today.  Now that I’ve said that, I can carry on with the rest of my story.

Daylight Passion With Lyssa

Sunday morning came.  As I was waking up I noticed that it was still raining, but the day was clearing.  Waking up on Sunday, Lyssa had a shower.  That’s when I wrote my last diary entry and then after that I had a shower. 

Sunday was still raining when we got out of the shower but Lyssa and I read the paper that my dad had bought. 

Lyssa and I were anticipating our sexual endeavors when she had a shower and I decided to also have one.  With the spawn of the sunlight outside shining through the closed curtains, we lay down on my bed, after sleeping three continuous nights on the floor.  Caressed by one another, we began to shed our clothes until Lyssa and I were fully undressed under thin sheets, the sheets that Lyssa had bought for my birthday. 

With the sun fully shining, Lyssa was somewhat embarrassed to be fully in the nude but soon got over her fear.  As time progressed I realized that this is the first time that I had seen Lyssa in the nude in daylight, and I liked what I had seen.

The Condom Breaks During Sex

After an hour, Lyssa and I got our scare for the day.  Lyssa had been off her period for one day where the egg would not have come from her ovaries yet.  Withdrawing from Lyssa, I realized that the condom had broken inside and all of me was real close to her.  Getting me all on her legs and all on me, I began to wonder if any had gone in her. 

What had happened was I tried to hold in my feeling, but Lyssa was very close to orgasm and had started shaking, causing me to go off.  At the exact moment I was going off I took myself out.  Hopefully it was just in time for nothing to have eventuated.  I also hope that the pill works and that her egg was safe and she hadn’t ovulated. 

All of Sunday Lyssa wanted to have sex. 

That was the only thing on her mind since it has been a while. 

Penelope Plans To Visit Austudy Center

Lyssa felt inclined to do some more exercise today so I got out the exercise bike and she jumped on.  After Lyssa finished on the exercise bike, she did some weights. 

Then we received a call from Penelope.  Penelope wanted to visit the Austudy center in Campbelltown on Tuesday so she can get paid when she is studying her courses.

Lyssa Gets Angry While Hungry

As the sun came out, Lyssa and I put on our shoes and went for a walk on a beautiful day.  Taking the movie back to Bradbury I wanted to walk to a park to stay out of my musty room for a while because it was getting too boring staying in one spot.  Thinking Lyssa would appreciate my thoughts, she actually got upset because she was drained of energy and hadn’t eaten enough. 

On that fact, we walked back to my house.  Before she could get something to eat we had to walk back to the shops to get some bread for my mum so that mum could make us some sausages. 

After our second walk to Bradbury shops I got some money from my mum.  I asked Lyssa if she would like to buy something but because she was still angry she denied my fairness.  Walking back to my house, Lyssa wouldn’t eat.  So I kept asking her and making her feel good until she had something to eat.

Lyssa Learns To Touch Type

As the night came on Lyssa and I jumped on my computer.  Lyssa asked me to teach her to type.  Lyssa has a tendency to jump on my computer now whenever she feels and she is motivated these days to type. 

I was teaching her the placement of her fingers on the keyboard.  Things got so technical that I drew the keys in different colors compared to what finger has to press the key and I still can’t get the pencil markings off the keyboard. 

We did some more typing techniques.  Lyssa has learnt well to touch type.  I found that Lyssa could type around 14 Wpm. 

Lyssa Considers Secretarial Course

As Lyssa and I were looking through the paper we found that we liked the idea of studying.  Lyssa and I were seriously taking into consideration a typing or secretarial course that we could do together in the City.  All we have to find out is how much the course will cost and if Austudy will help in any way.  That means Lyssa will be off her Job Diary of filling out 7 jobs a fortnight.

Going To Bed Sexually Frustrated

Lyssa and I went to sleep angry on Sunday night because I wanted to try a new position after what we had done earlier on in the day.  Every time I introduce doggy into our sexual relationship Lyssa has her way of having problems when the moment comes, or becoming more sensitive than usual.  Because of this feeling, late at night Lyssa and I didn’t do anything sexual and we went to sleep.

Teasing Lyssa While She Sleeps

As Lyssa went to sleep I was awake thinking.  I couldn’t resist to muck around with Lyssa in her sleep.  As I mucked around with the blankets, she started to talk in her sleep, “I’m cold.”  So, I put the blanket back on her. 

Then I got the headphones and started to listen to music softly through the headphones.  I found myself turning up the volume and placing it on Lyssa’s pillow.  Lyssa reacted by waking up, moving her head away and with her eyes open I thought she had a hint of what was going on.  But turning off the headphones I lay down and observed Lyssa as she fell back to sleep.  Getting tired, I turned off the headphones and went to sleep myself.

Fun Under The Sheets

Waking up today, I can recall jumping in the shower to get ready for what we had done the day before.  After I had a quick shower and we both had something to eat, we jumped on my bed.  We began to strip our clothes until Lyssa and I were fully naked. 

Surprisingly, after I had mentioned that we should try something different, Lyssa genuinely was sore down there.  After some foreplay for Lyssa we realized that nothing would eventuate today because of Lyssa’s condition.  As I rolled off, Lyssa got upset because I was momentarily angry.

Lyssa Enters A State Of Rage

That episode turned into a huge fight that Lyssa and I had for most of the day.  Lyssa got so angry that she took the photo out of the photo holder that she gave to me for my birthday and wanted to take all the other photos and the letters she gave to me.  After a fairly big argument that stemmed off the vision that I had a big problem because Lyssa couldn’t perform, we talked about breaking up.  But both of us didn’t want that.

Lyssa told me that she wanted her and I to have jobs together, save up our money for a holiday together and be happy for as long as we were together.  She wanted to be the best girlfriend I’ve had.  To be honest, after all this arguing and manipulation, I couldn’t think of a better girlfriend that I’ve ever had. 

I still think that Lyssa has been the best for me.

Makeup Sex With Lyssa

Our argument ended.  Then Lyssa and I did army rolls on my waterbed, as we laughed and played around. 

After having a talk, Lyssa aroused me.  Then I was found very horny.  Not too long later I was relieved orally.  Having that tension taken away, Lyssa had the problem of getting home.  She didn’t want to walk home so she called her mum around 7pm and got a lift home.  Giving me a kiss goodbye, I told her I would call her later do discuss tomorrow.

Discuss Plans With Lyssa

Jumping onto my computer for a while Lyssa called me not too long after and we discussed tomorrow.  From what I know is happening, Lyssa and I are visiting the CES where I will call some prospective employers and look for some positions as well as do a typing test and fax some résumés.  Lyssa and I will then go back to her house where we will call some colleges and schools up where we will inquire about courses regarding typing, clerical and photography.

While on the phone I told Lyssa how we have been spending plenty of time at my house together and at long intervals, and that we should curb the time spent at my house.  Lyssa took that personally.  The conversation went downhill from there.  After saying goodbye our plans were still the same for tomorrow.

Lyssa Rings Up To Apologize

Half an hour later Lyssa called me up and apologized for her behavior.  We talked for another half an hour.  Tomorrow morning I’m calling Lyssa at 9:30am and we are headed for Campbelltown to do our deed. 

Lyssa told me how her brother was suicidal on Saturday night.  He was down the street and for a couple of hours he lay on the street and started swearing while intoxicated by beer.  Police had to pull him off the road twice.  Carleigh and Lyssa’s mum were worried and crying for him. 

Lyssa shed some tears as I was talking to her on the phone.  Lyssa was depressed by the story her brother was talking to her about before she called me.

Having Problems With Ali

It’s been a while since I’ve talked to Ali now, almost a week.  Lately he hasn’t spared any time to still have fun.  The last few nights he’s been out with Penelope.  On Saturday he drove to the City with his exhaust fixed and drove around with the Lebs. 

Ali seems to think the whole problem is because I called him a name in the back of his car.  He can’t live it down with all the pride he’s got.  Knowing me and taking a stand, I know that Ali will also be stubborn and not want to know me after all we’ve been through.  It’s a shame because he is in the wrong after disrespecting me by getting Lyssa angry while driving stupidly.

Funnily enough, I found that Ali has definitely lost his license because a day or two ago he was busted by a speed camera on this long weekend doing 120Km/h in a 60Km/h zone.  He will lose 12 points as a result if he’s fined.  With Ali losing his rego in about two weeks and Penelope not having enough money to pay for rego when February comes (because she has to pay for tuition for which I helped her get into the course and rego will cost over $10,00), Penelope won’t have a car to drive also.

On top of that Penelope is leaving for a week in Queensland for a hen’s night.  One of her cousins is getting married.  In three weeks she will be in Queensland helping celebrate by going to male strip clubs and spending her time in the sun while Ali sweats. 

And… on top of all of that, I found out that Penelope has sold her mobile phone to her brother because she doesn’t want Ali calling her up every time she goes out with her friends.  Ali is too protective.  I’ve always thought that when it comes to Penelope.  I think she’s had enough. 

Now I wonder how Ali is going to take it when Penelope leaves in three weeks.  Ali will be left in the dark whenever Penelope goes out with her friends because the only person who he can find out from is me because Lyssa will most probably be with her.  Since Ali is so stubborn he won’t ever find out. 

Also, whenever Ali and Penelope have a fight, it’s basically all lost because Ali can’t get me or Lyssa to talk to her and Penelope can’t do it either.  Ali can’t call Penelope at home and the only person who will call will be Penelope.

Grateful To Have Lyssa

I’m not sure how much pages I’ve written tonight but it’s time to go now. 

One more thing to say is that January has been going downhill.  From my friends dogging and leaving me and having no job, no car coming to me, and no plans for the future with no money, I have no options left.  I’m grateful that I didn’t lose Lyssa today.  That would have been my fault.