Jewell Admits Past Mistakes That She Has Made – June 11, 1997

Back into the swing of it, back into the month as I’ve known it from the start, pleasing, easy going and fulfilling.  

Konquer Insurance Work – Wednesday

While traveling to work today, I didn’t notice any whackos.  

When at work at Konquer Insurance I had a nice day on the job.  Frank and I communicated today.  I didn’t stress that hard behind the desk.

I didn’t finish typing up Jett’s résumé just as yet.  But he didn’t call up today.  

Patching Up Differences With Lucas

Finishing up the work day, I came home from work on the train back to Campbelltown.

Lucas bumped into me in Pizza Hut.  Being the nice guy that I am this month, I had a conversation again.  We picked up as if there was no reason to fight, but all the hate hasn’t disappeared.  I still know what he’s like.  

Lucas gave me a lift home.  

Ali Keen To Take Anabolic Steroids

That’s when Ali and then Imad popped over to my house.

The latest news is that Ali is thinking of taking Anabolic Steroids.  

Imad and I tried to convince him not to take them, but we’re not his mum, so whatever he does, I’ll have to accept.  Talking to him for over an hour about the bad effects of taking steroids, some of it sank in.  He’s thinking hard.

Ringing Jewell

As soon as they left it was 9:30pm.  I thought that I haven’t called Jewell for so long that I should call her tonight.  Dialing her line, her mum answered the phone and was relieved that it was me.  She has taken a shine to me for some reason.  

Getting handed to Jewell, me and her had a hearty conversation.  Zola was there also.  

While she was there, we didn’t mention the CD that I sent her, but we talked about the picture.  They were taking pictures not too long ago.  Jewell took a side on shot like the one I sent to her.  Zola thinks the picture has a huge resemblance.  Jewell sees something special about the picture also.  We continued to talk about shit, until Zola left for home.

The Riddle Of The Dedications CD

I had a fun time talking to her and making her laugh.  Talk lessened and thinking started as soon as we were alone.  Without me saying anything into conversation, Jewell brought up the Dedications CD.  She asked me what the dates signify.  What I told her was this.

Within the poem, there are six lines.

Within the CD there are six songs.

Unto the CD there are six dates.

Combining the sixes represents evil (666).  This has no significance though.  

Each line of the poem complements each song and date in chronological order, and by order on the CD.  Without all these three you couldn’t work out the feeling between the both of us on these dates.  Jewell seems to know that the CD isn’t hers or mine, it’s ours.  She likes that.  

Jewell Admits Her Mistake

Jewell is to think about what the CD represents now.  I want her to find out all the hidden stories within my masterpieces.  

Jewell wanted to tell me something tonight, how she feels.  She wanted to tell me a title that she would give the CD.  I told her the CD already has a title, you don’t need to place it on the CD because it is already placed within the mind.

Jewell didn’t want to tell me because she didn’t think I still felt the same but I can read her.  She was telling me I probably don’t feel that way anymore, and that she might want it to go on a little longer.  

How I was reading her was that she still liked me.  

As my poem says, “When can I touch your lips once again,” is on her mind.

What she is thinking is it was a mistake to let me go so abruptly.  Now and now she thinks how she’s brought me into this world of friendship, she’s kept me there and can’t take me back out of it.  

She wants me to watch Romeo and Juliet with her at her house.  She didn’t mind coming to my house, so I’m thinking she wants to see me and continue with the kiss I was always talking about.