Receiving A Letter From Kathryn – Mad Chaos: September 10, 1996

Kathryn’s Sends A Letter

I rang up Nina today and she told me that Kathryn has written me a letter and she is sending a photo of her tattoo in it.  I am very happy to get this but it has been a week since she is supposed to have sent it.  I think it has to go through Brisbane before it comes down here.

That got me thinking about Kathryn more because I just really miss her.

Another 3 months and then I get to see Kathryn but 3 months is a long time.  When I think of her it just makes it ten times longer.  But I can’t help thinking about her.

I can’t wait to read the letter because I know it will be all good.  When I get that picture I’m going to enlarge it and then put it up on my wall.  I’m going to get it to as big as it will go.

I could go into a page or so of her and I might just end up doing that while I talk about going to Johnnie’s.

Calling Recording Studios

Today I went down to Campbelltown after waking up at 11:30 am.  I went to the C.E.S.  I also went to the phone to ring some recording studio’s.  None of them really specialize in rap, but there is one that can get my beats done.

Visit Johnnie

After that I went to Johnnie’s house and had a fun talk.

I got Johnnie to cut my hair and to get out of the house for a change.

We were talking, and as usual we talked about girls.  Him and Kayla have parted.

That got me talking about Kathryn and the shit we did together while she was down here.  She left a very lasting impression on me and I hope I did to her.

Right now, I am reminiscing on Mariah Carey again and listening to one sweet day.

I told him all about Kathryn (again), telling him how she had oh so long legs and model breasts and that beautiful face, and her extra-flavored g-spot, and how she would just knock him out if she got talking to him.  It’s not just a body, It’s also a mind in there, and that’s why she has given me a lasting impression of her.

I think I will end up getting the waterbed because we talked about that too.

Then I went home.

Imad Visits

Imad came over my house with his car.  He stayed for a bit.  Then he went to his house where his girlfriend was waiting for him.

Missing Kathryn

When Kathryn comes back I want to do many things with her but the thing that I most want to do is sleep in the same bed with her for one night.  I don’t mean have sex or make love to her – which I will be doing a lot – but I would just like to spend a night with her, next to her so that I can cherish that night for the rest of my life.

I don’t know what her dad will think, but by then I hope he understands that I’m not trying to bump her up for fun and forget her.  I want her for more than that.

My Definition Of Love

Let’s talk about love for a second.  Love to me is when someone deep down in their hearts wants to stay with a woman for the rest of his life and please her in all aspects to keep her happy, and just melt every time he sees her as if it were his last.

I will deny that I love her because I’m very strict about love and I am very confused because I have only known her for a week or two intimately, but I always come back to the fact that she has left an impression on me.  I guess it is the way we met and what we did together in that time that made us bond.

I wish this travel barrier would just disappear, and I hope that when she’s 18, I will still know her intimately.

The Many Changes Of Kathryn

She has gone blonde now.  I hope she goes red before she comes back down.  I also hope she dresses like I dream of her to dress before she comes back down.

Reasons To Return

I can’t help but to dream and I’m gonna be kicking myself for bringing up the subject.  I’m going to be very sad when she has to go once again away from my life for another year.  I don’t know if I will be able to face her for that moment but I know I can’t let her leave my life without saying goodbye in a special way.

I remember the last time she left, I couldn’t let her go.  I wanted to see her once more, but I woke up and knew she was going, but I couldn’t do anything about it.  That may still be the case but this time when she leaves me once again she will always have something to come back to down here other than her father.

She’ll have me and my love for her.