Having been awake now for two hours, I can say I’ve had a decent six hours of sleep. No more am I delusional, so it is time to comment about the weekend just past.
Lyssa Is A Good Clingy
Lyssa is coming over soon so I’m writing this passage beforehand and then going back to my normal routine just in case it doesn’t get done. Wanting to spend a night to myself, Lyssa was persistent in staying over, so she is. Figuring this as she left her belongings at my house and telling me she would come and pick them up and go home, I knew that wouldn’t be.
Lyssa is too affiliated with me at times. At times, I wish I could just have my space. But if that was to be, Lyssa would get angry, upset, and that is more unbearable to put up with.
Word is, just over the phone that Lyssa is coming over now. That leaves me with a lot of things that haven’t been done yet, so I will just have to wait until tomorrow. I’m irritated somewhat that Lyssa is coming over tonight, moreover, irritated with the fact that Lyssa and I will be distant in six months and Lyssa isn’t realizing this by taking precautionary steps to assure we don’t get too hung up on each other. Nevertheless, I have to pack her bag to give to her mum when she arrives.
Tired Of Supportive Bus Walks
Another thing that bothers me when Lyssa stays over on workdays is that Lyssa wants me to wake up in the mornings and walk her to the bus stop. This morning and this afternoon, I made completely clear to Lyssa that I don’t like getting up early in the morning for no real reason. Lyssa doesn’t need me to walk her to the bus stop, there’s no danger. It’s impractical so Lyssa knows that I won’t be walking her to the bus stop tomorrow.
Feeling Lyssa Is Too Pushy
Well, enough said, I have to go now, but I’ll be back later tonight or tomorrow morning.
Another thing, Lyssa is leaving her makeup, hair dryer and CDs at my house. Lyssa wants me to meet her in Campbelltown tomorrow so I can help her sell the CDs. Right now I’m feeling obligated to do this because I know that Lyssa won’t take her makeup and CDs to College with her. That means she won’t have them for tomorrow. What does that mean? That means I’m pushed into a corner to bring them to her somehow, and that makes me belligerent.
Lyssa is too pushy. Whenever I try and explain, “I don’t want to,” Lyssa gets all emotional and upset. You can’t contest with that.
A Hectic Abs Session
The only thing I haven’t mentioned was when I done some sit-ups during this entry tonight. Pretty hectic they were also.
Maybe you’re asking, “Why doesn’t Tony start up weights again?”
Well, the answer to that is, I don’t want to push too much at this time. Doing sit-ups is just enough to carry me over at the moment. When the right time comes, weights will be added. It’s a small form of over-training if I start weights, so I don’t.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
