Sexual Frustration Leads To Fight – Mad Chaos: March 2, 1998

Reflecting On The Month

A month has passed without me even realizing.  I guess I was too tied up in the moments that were passing. 

Well, as February passed, some things came good and some things didn’t come.  I guess it was good that a buildup was coming back involving friendship.  All through February people started talking to me again including Ali.  All through February I was looking for work and hopefully, the last few days of searching will bring me my break. 

Last month, I realized what I want to be with my life and I realized that I wanted to study Audio Engineering for my musical career.  Some things did happen for me, but some were also shady.  Now as a new month comes, a longer one, I don’t have much plans as yet.  I still believe that this month will be the one in which I find a job.  It’s been tough without a job and I’m getting tired of being out of work. 

Lyssa and I will still be strong this month, even though we have started off badly.  Let me explain starting from the end of last month.

Hanging Out With Ali

Saturday night came for me after playing the computer, something I have been doing often in February.  Ali had come over at 8:30pm.  We drove to Campbelltown in Penelope’s car.  There was never really an odd moment.  It was like old times.  But we found that we had to converse more than have silence so we were talking all night. 

Driving to Campbelltown’s main street, we found nothing was happening and almost no one was on the streets.  Everyone that we knew was somewhere else, as we drove to Woodbine Macers.  There we sat with the engine off talking about his car and the Celicas that are in Campbelltown in recent times. 

There was no action at McDonald’s as yet, so we drove to Imad’s work.  While there we talked to him and his lady friend worker.  I remembered a story that Ali had told me at my house today.

Cruise To Sydney With Ali & Imad

Last night Ali and Imad drove to the City and covered it up with Wollongong so Dina wouldn’t get angry.  It was pouring rain.  When it stopped raining, Imad and Ali chased a car full of girls in the City.  As they roamed around in Imad’s car, the other contestants stopped and they started talking.  The girls were high on some drugs.  A real sexy one (who has the same features as Jenny McCarthy on my wall), started talking to Imad and Ali.

The sexy girl jumped into the car and started mucking around with Imad.  She tried to muck around with Ali.  Ali told the girl many times he had a girlfriend who he was getting married, to get an image in her head not to touch him.  Meanwhile, this blonde bombshell was in the front seat getting onto Imad.  Imad got as far as putting his hands up her shirt. 

The other girls were sitting outside because they were basically ugly and didn’t deserve attention.  My thoughts were that the girls were full of jealousy, “She always gets the guys”, are my thoughts.  Imad now has the girl’s number and she has his number.  Imad was supposed to receive a call at Mobil when we visited him.

Visit Imad At Mobil Petrol Station

There we sat at Mobil for an hour talking to Imad.  Then Lyssa gave me a call on my mobile phone.  Lyssa had been drinking a good amount of liquor and was getting a lift home with Nikita, Mallory, Constantine and her boyfriend.  She was telling me the party was real good but she wanted to come over my house.  Giving the approval, I told her I wouldn’t be over half an hour.

The Lebs Get Into A Fight

Ali and I then left for Campbelltown, where we stopped first at McDonald’s.  All the Lebs were now there. I found that a fight had broken out between the Lebs.  Rafiq and Jabir who are cousins had thrown punches.  When we arrived Jabir (who comes from Liverpool) had gone home to get some back up.  Rafiq had gone home apparently to get his gun.  From what I know, a fight was bound to happen.

Ali and I left then for Campbelltown where he talked to a guy about the car he is supposed to be swapping Penelope’s car for.  Now late, we finally arrived at my house. 

Drunk Sex With Lyssa

I had a feeling that Lyssa would already be there.  I was right, and sorry.  Ali apologized for being late.  Then I gave Lyssa a hug.  Both of us walked to my room and Lyssa wasn’t angry at all.  She was just worried for me.

As Lyssa was almost drunk I thought I’d have fun with the situation and take advantage of her.  Lying her on the bed I kept taking a piece of clothing off, then another.  She didn’t mind.  As you get the picture, last night we had the maddest time since we were both wild.  It turned out great.  That was a great capping day for the end of the month, as we were so tired, we just went to sleep.

Lunch In Bradbury School

Sunday Lyssa and I had no plans and therefore didn’t do anything.  Waking up at 12:30pm I walked upstairs to cook some morning breakfast.  As Lyssa and I had breakfast, I put a video on, as we watched.  For an hour or two we sat in front of the television.  Then after an hour of reading the Sunday newspaper we decided to visit Bradbury shops. 

Lyssa had some money left over to buy food so she thought she would buy some.  A scuffle broke out for some reason.  I can’t remember why, but Lyssa left for Bradbury shops without me.  Minutes later I put my shoes on and followed.

Reaching the shops, Lyssa had bought some food and we were ready to go home.  Instead, we walked to Bradbury Public School.  We both jumped the fence and sat down under the shade of the Basketball courts and ate. 

Lately, I’ve realized that Lyssa hasn’t worn a skirt this year from just near the end of January.  The last time I can remember Lyssa wearing a skirt was for New Years.  While we were eating some Skate Boarders thought they would be cool and skate in front of us.  We weren’t amused. 

Finishing up our food and conversation, we started walking to my house again.  We both got angry once more because I asked Lyssa where she wanted to go from there.

Ali & Penelope Pop Over

Reaching my house, we put a home video on.  Then Ali and Penelope came over after I called them.  We all sat in my room, as Ali and I watched the home movies and the girls talked their girl talk. 

The girls then walked to the car to have a private session and so Penelope can have a smoke.  Meanwhile, Ali told me about the pictures that Penelope had taken for Marley’s party.  I told him to get me some negatives and I’ll get some copies, surprise Lyssa.

When the girls came back into the house we watched a documentary on Titanic as we both broke off into couples. 

After the movie was finished, Ali and Penelope mucked around (I think for some publicity).  Then they left.  Lyssa and I got excited, as I had been waiting all day for another encounter.

Trying New Positions With Lyssa

Having a shower I came back to my room with nothing on but a towel.  Lyssa then had a shower and she too came in the room with nothing but a towel. 

The light was off, the television dimmed, the door closed. 

Lyssa knew I wanted to do Puppy Dog style, but I don’t think she was too keen on it.  As we lay on the ground I done something to be funny and Lyssa took offence to it.  Time was wasting, as I had to apologize to her.  I was getting more out of the mood, as we were both tired.

There we lay for ten minutes with my hand around her.  With my eyes wide opened I realized Lyssa wasn’t anticipating tonight as much as I was.  Lyssa then asked me if we were going to do anything.  I asked her if she was in the mood.  Lyssa told me she “wasn’t in one case” and then she was “kind of in the mood” in the other instance.  That made me angry to think she didn’t really want to do anything.  So I said I wasn’t in the mood. 

A Difference Of Opinion Breaks Out

Out of the room she stormed into the bathroom.  Then as she came in, she had seen me lying on the floor with nothing on, under blankets and ready to sleep.

Lyssa and I couldn’t sleep last night.  The first thing Lyssa done was try to get distance between us and jump onto the bed instead of asking what was wrong.  Lyssa then started crying.  We had a big argument over the fact that Lyssa makes it hard for me to try anything on her and because of my being made to feel shy.  On the other hand, whenever Lyssa wants anything sexual it’s always in reach, no problems.  Not my case.  I have a little struggle.

We sat for two hours arguing.  The height of the argument saw Lyssa ready to walk home from my house.  I was ready to let her go but knew that Lyssa shouldn’t be walking the streets at that time.  After some petty disputes I lay back down on the floor. 

Lyssa turned the light off and then planted her head right in my arm where I was laying and squashed up next to me.  Not amused, I turned away.  Lyssa turned towards me and hugged me.  I was happy with that until she took it away and turned away from me because she didn’t get a response from me.  It was almost midnight when we ended up sleeping.  Both of us were ready to drop.

Lyssa Heads To College

Waking up this morning, we still carried the dread of last night.  As Lyssa got ready, she had anger in her voice.  Lyssa took things out on me, petty things that she shouldn’t have, like the hair dryer stopping.  The alarm didn’t wake us up and Lyssa was late for College, which she didn’t even want to attend. 

Walking Lyssa to the bus stop, we waited a couple of minutes.  Then we gave each other a kiss and she left.

Sleeping I have been doing until 11:30am when Lyssa gave me a call.  She told me that a friend from College is giving her a lift home when she finishes and not to worry meeting her at the station.  Lyssa is staying over my house tonight.  I hope the problems will be sorted out. 

Lyssa and I have been without arguments for a while before this one.  Lately, problems and arguments have been more frequent.  There will come a day when Lyssa and I will have had enough and turn our backs and leave. 

Today I have nothing to do.  I have my money in the bank, so I might visit Campbelltown later today and get my hair cut.