Last night I played the computer until 3:30am. Then getting to sleep I set the alarm for the afternoon.
Help Lyssa Format A Floppy Disk
Lyssa ended up calling me at 11:30am today. I explained I was still visiting her to catch a train home. Lyssa called me a couple of times from work.
Lyssa wanted to format a disk. I tried to help her with a computer problem over the phone. I was taking her through the procedure but she got scared of technology and turned it off.
Job Search In CES
Johnnie came looking for me today. I called Imad today. Apart from Jett, those are the only friends I really talk to.
Walking to Campbelltown, I stepped into the CES for half an hour. In that time I looked at one position. There was a lady screening me. She was Capricorn, quirky and out there. The screening was funny because she guessed I was Capricorn because I was prepared.
While at the CES I was also called by an employer that I sent an application form to on February 2. The company was Hymans and I have to see Sariyah on Friday in Villawood. The position I applied for was of a Word Processing Operator and they needed at least 70wpm typing speed. It had been so long I didn’t think they would call me back for the position, but here they were, and now I’m in competition.
If I land this job as a Word Processing Operator (which will pay big money to me), and the office is large and a big company, then I will be set. Lyssa and I will both be earning money and opening a separate bank account for the both of us. We will be saving for a holiday together.
Lyssa and I will be together for quite some time from now. From the start of the relationship I thought we would be together for at least a year. Now that’s changed. It’s much longer.
Visit Sydney To Pick Lyssa Up
Stepping out of the CES I caught the train to the City without a ticket and waited for Lyssa on the St. James Station platform. Ten minutes later Lyssa showed up. After greeting with a kiss, we sat down to wait for our train.
As the train came we jumped on with a large number of people. We found a seat facing a girl with a short skirt, where her legs were practically between mine. Lyssa sat clumped up next to me with a large person opposite her. Embarrassed about the girl sitting across from me, Lyssa and I jumped up to look for another seat, but they were all filled.
Lyssa got upset somewhat because we had no seats. I went searching leaving her standing next to a tall man and some girls finishing work. While on my trek through the train I met up with Celeste (one of the old Goon Girls). We talked for a couple of minutes catching up, before I left back on my adventure.
Standing On The Train Home
Finding no available seats for both of us, I walked back to Lyssa. We stood on the train for a couple of stations. Funnily, what I noticed was when I left her she was spaced from the tall man in a suit, but coming back they were both standing close, mostly because the train was more cramped.
Accidentally I touched the man’s hand on the pole, as I said sorry for my actions. Without knowing it, Lyssa held her hand on his thinking it was mine. After a couple of seconds she looked and made a correction. Lyssa also said sorry, but the guy was genuinely assuring us.
Feeling Loved By Lyssa
Finding a seat Lyssa and I got cute with each other, saying our famous little pet sayings that we’ve never had before. For instance we always say ‘Ello bubbie’ to each other like we were Swedish backpackers. Then there’s the saying “What cha doin” and as I say Puppy Dog to Lyssa to let her know I love her she says Bumblebee to me. Lyssa’s password for her St. George account is Bumblebee and her computer password at work is Bubbie.
Lyssa and I were all hugs on the train today. As I think now, I know that it’s love that we have for each other. Lyssa and I rarely fight with each other anymore. We’ve sorted out most of our differences. Kisses and more kisses, as we anticipated this weekend and a night at Macarthur Motor Inn.
Return With Lyssa To Her House
Back in Leumeah Lyssa begged me to visit her house. She told me it would mean so much to her, so we sat out the front of Leumeah station waiting for a bus. There were some Germans on holidays waiting for a bus, as we caught it to Lyssa’s house.
While at Lyssa’s house I had something to eat and read the paper, as Lyssa and I talked. Lyssa told me that Ali’s car has run out of registration now. Penelope has put an ad in the paper making him sell it. Feeling sorry for Ali a little, he’s losing a part of himself when he sells that car. Because he doesn’t drive anymore, Ali has been spending the last few nights at his sister’s house in Auburn because his TAFE is there.
Tonight Ali is getting picked up by Penelope to come to the runs in Campbelltown. Then once they are finished, she is dropping him back of in Auburn. Penelope is also starting TAFE soon, so Ali and Penelope will not see each other until the weekends.
Another thing Lyssa told me is that Penelope has it in her mind now that Ali and her will get married. I can see it in the actions they are making. Selling Ali’s car reminds me of how a father sold his street machine because he couldn’t drive his child in a machine. It had to be safe. So that is what Penelope is thinking.
Looking In The Sentiments Box
Once television had nothing playing, we walked to Lyssa’s room and sat there for the next hour mucking around. Lyssa showed me a box full of things that I’ve given her. The box was one that I gave her, placing her Chinese skirt in it for Christmas. Ranging from a train ticket to pictures and letters that I’ve given to Lyssa over the time, she’s kept all reminders of us. Also kept are reminders of when we visited our Hotel rooms, like a receipt to the room.
Lyssa also tried on her formal dress, and we looked at pictures reminiscing.
Discussing Lyssa’s New Fantasies
Lyssa also told me some mere fantasies that she had. One of them was to have a large warm room, a fireplace and us sitting on comfortable ground. Then instead of being fast sexually, we would take it slow.
Another small fantasy of hers is for me to say, “I love you” while we were sexually active. My feelings on that is, when we are sexually active, it’s not the time to say it because of all the expression we are embarking on. Far be it for me to analyze the situation, but to me, it seems like the only right time to do it would be if we made love for its purpose and in not being cautious, as in, if we decided for reasons to let me ejaculate inside of her, since its significance would make me gestate on the reasons of love.
Lyssa’s mum gave me a lift home with Lyssa in the car, but Lyssa wanted me to stay over her house.
Planning Ahead
Tomorrow I will be traveling to Campbelltown to check out the CES for the positions I didn’t see today. Thursday I might travel to the City and have lunch with Lyssa. On Friday I will be getting up early, traveling to Lyssa’s house to drop off all her Valentine’s Day presents, travel to Villawood for my interview, and then catch a train to the City to come home with Lyssa. Lyssa will be sleeping over my house on Friday, where she will be giving me my present for Valentine’s. Then on Saturday we will be at the hotel.
Well, well, my life has shaped out to be very different this year. From what to be a life with more friends and companionship has turned to more professionalism and a life where friends are scarce.
This year is the year I manage my relationship with work and my personal life. This month has seen a remarkable change into an in depth look for a job, and people want me.
For the rest of tonight I might play the computer, I guess until the early hours of the morning.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
