Love Is The Difference
Now as another day progresses closer to new years, I’ve had another day to think about my situation with Lyssa. I really can’t understand how she could just snap like that and all of a sudden everything has changed, all of a sudden I don’t mean anything. The difference between her and I is that there is love coming from me, while she only likes what I do for her.
So that’s the issue. That’s the reason she doesn’t hesitate to say that she wants everything back, she wants to take back the five months I gave to her, the five months I made her happy, and supposedly it was all a scam. How quickly one wants to forget about the other when harsh words are spoken.
Another thing about Lyssa is that she gets bitchy and yells. Only once have I yelled at her and she got so pissed off that she stormed out of my house. I have to live with her being snappy and not knowing when to stop being rude. I just sit there and take it because if it makes her happy to yell at me, I love her and I guess I can live with it.
There is no remorse in my heart right now. I’m not so sad to the fact I’m not talking to her, only that I might not see her again in the same way as before.
Lyssa Has Pizza In Bondi
Lyssa doesn’t take my feelings into consideration. When she traveled to Bondi last night I figure it was to have some time with her friends, as I would also. But the way she came across it sounded as if she’s going out to have a good time without me, because she doesn’t need me. If that’s what she wants, she can have it. I won’t complain because I’ve always wanted the best for her.
If what I do for Lyssa isn’t good enough for her then my best just won’t do.
I’m going to give her a call at lunch time and see what she has to say, see if she’s angry because of what Ali done last night.
Prepare Jewell’s Letter At Work
Upon waking up today I found I was half an hour later than usual, so I had to get my dad to give me a lift to work. I didn’t complain because I saved some money. So here I am at Martinson Engineering.
Coming in early I brought the envelope for Jewell. I’m wondering if the address in Raby I have is her address. I’m hoping I don’t get it wrong.
Confronting Salman, I asked of him a favor to write the address on the envelope. He understood that it was a private thing, as we talked. Salman is a very smart person I have to say. He can go very far and probably already has.
While at lunch, after calling Lyssa I will post the letter to Jewell. I’m not sure why I’m doing it but I just got an urge. Like I said yesterday, it’s like a Christmas thing, no cheating involved.
Nathan Places Job Ad In Newspapers
Lunch is hours away and I’m already bored. Hopefully this is my last week working at Martinson Engineering. But I also hope that I work next week for some more money.
Nathan told me he’s placing an advertisement for a position in the paper today. So far no calls.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
