Destined, by Fate, or can it be, is it real, does it have to happen this way. Who is stronger, me or Lyssa? Who has the more power, or are we equal? Who is going to hurt most at the end of the relationship? Who feels the pain now and holds it within themselves, collecting more and more anger and pain, not telling a soul until one day, it becomes unbearable and all pain is released at once. Who is at fault, what determines that?
The Capricorn That I Am
Capricorn is who I am and not really caring about my horoscope I’ll tell myself about my characteristics. Capricorns are loving creatures. They will love you right and love you long but that love can be turned against them.
Capricorn’s are very vulnerable to many things, as I’ve determined through experience. Capricorn’s are the last to let go, and the first to grab a hold and show that everything is alright. Capricorn’s are laid back and take things as they happen but they like to plan things very timely, think things through when the choice has been made and make rash decisions when first approached with problems.
Capricorns are tender and loving but can equally be aggressive and aggravated, but not out of control. Capricorns need to be found in order to feel wanted, being quiet in their nature, strong in their thoughts and mind, determined in their progress and present to please all.
The Leo Star Sign That Lyssa Is
Leo is who Lyssa is, a person who feels that control is a necessity and control is what Leo needs in order to feel at ease. Leo is very easily agitated and concerned about its surroundings. Leo is a keeper, but if Leo doesn’t see something it likes, it throws the chance away subject to inner greed.
Leo is demanding being the center of attention in all aspects of life, very noticeable and vibrating. Leo can twist things around to their favor and prefer to be in control or close to it whenever possible. Leo is not satisfied until all the cards in their hands are perfect and unbeatable to the opposition.
Horoscope Relationship Compatibility With Lyssa
Now, gathering that information, knowing both types of people, Lyssa and I have a chance. As a Capricorn I can bend to Lyssa’s needs for some time because I am here to make people happy. What I won’t do is keep bending until she breaks my back. I won’t go that far, she has to help me and aid me to keep this going.
Konquer Insurance Work – Tuesday
Changing the subject, my first day of part-time work was alright. Pretty much the whole day was worked.
I was sent to the City also.
Finishing at 4pm I came home. I caught the bus home for a change.
Feeling Ignored By Lyssa
Ali rang me up and told me that Lyssa rang him up telling him that Penelope was at her house and he could see her if he wanted to. If Ali didn’t tell me that I don’t think Lyssa would have told me or even invited me over to her house that night. I’m not sure to say that, she might have later but that’s the impression I got.
Not taking that seriously to heart I called her up and told her that Ali called. She told me Penelope wanted to see the pictures. That was my cue to come to her house also. Never have I really heard Lyssa come out on a limb for me. I’ve never heard Lyssa tell me that she wants to see “me” for me. Lyssa can’t tell me she wants to see me.
Every time I talk to Lyssa I want to see her, she pretty much talks for a little and wants to go. I want to talk for longer. What is she doing to me.
Going To Lyssa’s House
Taking the pictures with me, Penelope really pissed me off when she threw one of the pictures in the bin because it was a bad shot of her. I can understand why she did it but it pissed me off badly.
Sometimes, Lyssa and Penelope can really be snobby. Ali and I saw that today when we arrived there. What I wanted was for Lyssa to come to my window in the car, say hello to me and give me a kiss. I’d help and that would make me happy and feel wanted. Instead she sat on the other side of the car and listened to the conversation that Penelope had with Ali.
Penelope literally dragged Lyssa to my door where we got to talking, and she told me that I was snobby.
Like a true Capricorn, I jumped into the deep end without really checking how deep it was, and now I’m drowning. But while I drown, I’ve always got my music to listen to, drown with a mind full of tranquility…
Tension At Lyssa’s House
Ali and I went into Lyssa’s house. Penelope was over her house also. Things got ugly for a few seconds with me and Lyssa. Even though I kept the feelings inside of me and didn’t express myself to anyone, I know that we got onto each others nerves without really knowing it.
Lyssa needs to come to my world for a while and then I have to bend for Lyssa, but the latter is usually truer of the two.
This month has really started to change now. Hopefully I’m with Lyssa at the end of this month and we are fairly strong, but I can’t predict the future. I’m not sure where we are headed at the moment.
Sometimes I look at the photos we took together and think that we were meant to be, and sometimes I look at the same photos and think that she is so far out of my reach, unbearable. Right now I’m in between because even though we were close tonight, we didn’t explore our minds. We had fun but the fun I can’t really capitalize on.
The pain I felt tonight I remember the most.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
