Typing Up The Handwritten Diary
Not having enough time to write in my diary yesterday, I had to leave my four-page handwritten diary entry for tonight maybe.
Yesterday was confusing for me. After I typed up my diary entry onto the Amiga 500 computer from the handwritten version, all I could do was just sit there and read it.
When I’ve finished copying the handwritten diary entry into my computer, I’m going to place it somewhere and keep it for as long as I can remember, because my heart is in those words.
Konquer Insurance Work – Monday
Yesterday, I listened to the music that I brought to work and thought hard all day.
Tabitha and I had lunch in the office. I had to listen to her think she is the greatest thing on earth.
Trying to call Jewel on my lunch break, no one was home at her house. I gathered she was still at school.
Hang Out With Rory
Wanting to call Lyssa so much, having her in my mind all day, I shoved the thought away because I don’t know how she feels about me still.
Coming home from work, I walked to Pizza Hut where Simon and Rory greeted me.
Rory congratulated me with Lyssa. I really feel that she likes me as much as I like her, but there is always doubt, until I talk to her next.
Discuss Lyssa With Simon
Simon came over my house for some time. Rory popped in also. We talked about many things. Lyssa came into conversation.
Now I’m thinking how Lyssa asked me ‘am I a person that would stop calling after a couple of weeks’. I’m not the person she despises. So I’m going to call her at lunch today and show her that she’s wanted.
Ringing Lyssa
When Simon and Rory left yesterday, I called Lyssa’s house. But she was at Penelope’s house and I didn’t want to intrude on her. Not knowing what Lyssa is thinking is menacing. Not talking to her last night is disturbing to my thoughts.
Ringing Jewell
Deciding to ring Jewell, I talked to her for an hour. She is an easy person to talk to, probably because I’ve been through more with her. But the conversation was mysterious. I would always be silent.
The truth is, what I was telling her was that even though things might change now, she should never forget me, lose me or keep me out of her reach because we are too good to be lost, and too lost to be forgotten.
After talking to Jewell I shed a tear and then lay in bed.
I lay to sleep with thoughts in my mind about Lyssa, and thoughts in my mind about Jewell.
Longing For Lyssa At Work
Lyssa was on my mind this morning coming to work, she is in my head now and she will be for some time tonight.
Hopefully with a twist of fate, I’ll get to see her tonight. We can work out where we are headed and I can hold her, feel her warmth all night.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
