Today I woke up half an hour later than usual because I slept in on purpose.
Getting a late train to work didn’t matter.
Konquer Insurance Work Day
Even though I was late to work, Frank was too, so I was alright.
Today was busy again. I done lots of computer work.
Penning A Poem To Jewell
But the main purpose of today was to write my letter to Jewell.
The letter was written, copied onto white, scenic see-through paper. It was sprayed with perfume for women. This is what it says.
No more, can I show my affection in the way I used to feel was relevant
No more, can we both feel for each other in our moment
Reality isn’t real anymore,
Fantasy is real now…
The more I thought about your feelings,
The more I realized that you were right to create a fantasy.
Now it is time to make that fantasy a reality…
One last time will I send you a letter,
One last time can you remember what I was.
Now it is time to say goodbye as a lover,
It is time to love in a different way.
Friendship is unreachable the barriers are too great,
But, as I begin to fade from your life as what you knew me for,
Remember the good times we lived together.
Your thoughts are what made me change my mind to what I am thinking now.
When the time comes, we will be back together…
I’ve always had something missing from my life,
Up until now I didn’t know what that was,
I always wanted a friend like you,
Someone that would help me through troubled times,
Be there for the good times, but with a special tie that will keep us together.
Now I want to be there for you,
Protect you like a brother,
That is our new friendship,
After I fade away.
I think that says enough for what is going to happen.
Errands In The City
From lunch Frank had me go to the city.
While there I mailed the letter I wrote to Jewell yesterday. It should reach her tomorrow.
The Secret Admirer
Yanna came up to me today. She is the Macedonian woman that I met yesterday. I forgot to talk about when I met her and Harriet in the common hall at work yesterday.
Harriet is the person that works as a receptionist in Mission Employment next door to our office. She’s 20 years old, lives in Fairy Meadows, and likes me.
Today Yanna told me that Harriet liked me. She was waiting one hour for me to come from lunch, when in fact I was in the city.
So tomorrow when or if she approaches me, I’m going to see what she has to offer.
Hanging Out With Rory
When I finished work I caught a train to Campbelltown.
I saw Rory and Miroslav and the rest of them at Campbelltown. They all drove to the skating rink.
I went with Rory for a while, sitting there talking.
Lucas rang me up while I was with Rory. We drove to my house because he wanted to ring Kiki up because she likes him now.
Ringing Jewell
I rang up Jewell. She wasn’t expecting me to ring. She was expecting me to blow her up for being rude yesterday.
After ringing her, we rang Kiki. Lucas talked to her for half an hour.
Upon calling Jewell back, I talked to her trying to give her clues about what might be coming in the mail.
Now I have to have two letters prepared for Jewell. The one I just read out is getting sent tomorrow. Her last letter from me is a yellow, marbled cardboard paper.
It doesn’t have anything written on it. All I am going to write on it is SNIPER and the date under it in highlighter yellow, and that’s it. That’s my last letter to Jewell.
This letter I’m sending tomorrow tops off the one I sent today, it’s good.
Bills, Bills & More Bills
Today I received another telephone bill, a one-off bill that costs a lot of money. All my money is going towards bills these days.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
