Diary Of A Mad Chaos
Alison Cancels Plans
I’m confused today. I do not understand women fully and I do not know what they want.
I called Alison and I was talking to her about Friday night. I had the listing ready to read out to her but she could not go because she had to go to the city that night. She sounded really nice to me and interested but she never met me half way.
When I am on the phone I never go out for what I want, I always make excuses up for the women I like.
I’m confused now because I want to call up Aubree to see if she is going out tonight and to see if she can pick me up, but I’m scared to see if she’ll sound not interested.
Today I went down Campbelltown. I was with Tatton at the time and we done our C.E.S shit together.
Later I saw Harley down there. She was going to ring Janice. She didn’t act like it when talking but she was expecting me to go with her for a while.
Tatton left and I went looking for a lift home maybe, with Miroslav. I then saw Harley later (I think), in Keith’s car. Rory was definitely with him and there were two girls in the back. The dog didn’t even stop but Miroslav behind him was thinking about it.
Drive Home With Celeste
I didn’t find him so I walked home and thought I was going to walk all the way but Celeste found me and picked me up with Janice and Tarina in the car.
I sat in the back with Tarina and she gave me a sinister look. If I had to trust one of the girls, I would put all my trust into Celeste. I don’t know why but to me she is the most trustworthy and best attitude I have seen in a while.
I called Sherry because I didn’t feel bad about calling her, but she wasn’t home. She was out shopping and I could call her back in an hour.
Regretting The Dance Parties
This should be my month but it isn’t. I wish that the two dance parties I went to never happened at all. If they didn’t happen then I might be somewhere today with Aubree.
Right now I am sighing on what I should do tonight. I definitely don’t want to get a lift with Keith or Rory tonight. If Aubree doesn’t end up giving me a lift and if no one comes to pick me up, then I will end up going somewhere with Sherry.
Job Interview Lined Up
I am going for a job interview tomorrow at Marrickville for an office job at 9:00 am in the morning. I’ll have to get up at 7:00 am and I’ll have to sleep at 11:00 pm at least. I won’t get to sleep for it though because I’ll be too nervous.
I signed up for another driving lesson on Saturday at 10:45 am. Other than that, I don’t have a woman, I don’t have a job, I don’t have enough money coming in but what I do have is DEPRESSION. I hate being depressed,
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until 2018, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.