Lessons Learned In The Job Search Process
I think the state of my life and where I’m headed has finally hit me. I’m pretty much broke every week, can’t get a loan, I’m losing my job and security, and I don’t think I’ll get another position for a long time.
There’s one thing I’ve learned through looking for a job, that the job search process is hard and a waste of time. Every time that I get rejected by an employer it just sends me into a reality that broadens with each rejection.
When I step into an interview, the interviewer makes me think.
I start to think, “There are lots of better people than me.”
That is true because the interviewer will just see me as just another person that doesn’t stand out. Every time I go to an interview I tell myself to do something stupid. Something that would stand out, but nothing ever eventuates, and I’m always shy and timid until I’m out of there.
That’s one of my major problems, I impress the wrong people and I don’t show my full potential on first interviews. But once I’ve got that job, I believe I’ll tear everyone up with what I have to offer.
So, once I’m out of this job I’ll have a big credit card bill to pay and be stuck without a useful job.
I want to do University or TAFE but I need money, and that I don’t have. The only thing I have going for me at the moment is Lyssa. At least I can say that is going well.
The Poor Job Interview In Sydney
Getting up for work today at 7am I caught the train for the Interview in the City. As usual, I have a feeling that they didn’t really want me. Apart from the fact that she didn’t even show much interest in me, look at my résumé or even be there to say bye bye, I have to say that she made me feel rejected.
The only good thing about the whole interview was that I had a typing speed of 60 wpm and 2% errors.
One day I’m just going to snap. I can feel it. When that happens I don’t know what I’ll do but I know I’m capable of doing very much, and that’s scary.
Ringing Lyssa From Work
Lyssa called my mobile after I left. She rang to apologize for her mum yesterday. She was ringing from home with her landline phone, so I called her back on the work phone to save her money as we had a chat.
Lyssa’s Birthday is coming up soon. I’m contemplating on whether to get a car or to buy my Stereo System Components and something special for Lyssa.
Frank is out of the office right now so I might call her. So what am I to do after tomorrow when I resign from Konquer Insurance? I’ll just be at home for most of the day.
Konquer Insurance Work – Thursday
Office is really starting to shit me. I mean, it’s good once you have a position in the field but it’s a fuck to try to get into the business. It really comes down to who you know and where they work. But I don’t have any contacts like that, so I’m stuck with the hard life for a while.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
