Sitting at work, I wonder to whom I belong, and to where I should go. As the past few days have nicely rolled by, I have nicely relaxed in my blissful mind thinking, thinking, thinking…
Getting A Break With Lyssa
Saturday night was good for me, my first break with Lyssa, and how smoothly it went.
Driving to their house in Ali’s car there were enough girls there for a party. Lyssa, Velda, Penelope, Marley (the school captain), and two other girls that followed including Redd’s woman Nadia and Redd himself.
Lyssa and Penelope came in Ali’s car as planned. The speakers that were put in for the occasion were set to stun.
Picking Up Firewood
At first the girls jumped in the back seat for some reason, until we stopped off at my house for firewood out of my backyard.
Lucas, Simon, Imad and Marley drove their cars.
We packed Lucas’s boot full of wood from my backyard, and his boot is huge!
Driving to a petrol station from there, we bought some Jiffy firelighters.
Jumping back into the cars, we proceeded to head for Wollongong.
Cruising To Wollongong With The Girls
On the highway, Imad was pulled over with Velda in his car. Luckily enough, even though he was speeding and had no license, he got away with a warning. The cop didn’t bother checking his record.
After that little scare, the rest was smooth sailing.
Lyssa and I were having little chats in the back but nothing serious as yet.
Corrimal Beach Group Bonfire
Arriving at the spot, Tatton and Shawn were already there. So we placed the fire on and uprooted a road log, carried it to the fire and used it as a park bench to sit on.
Everyone was pretty much uneasy. They had to get used to each other but that didn’t really happen.
Walking to Penelope and Lyssa, I started to hang around with her, even though wherever we walked it would always be together.
Redd and Lyssa’s friends would look at us with the impression that something was bound to happen soon. They just wanted to see when.
Walking With Lyssa To The Cars
Taking some pictures with the camera, I placed it in Imad’s car because I wanted hands-free for Lyssa. Little did I know that the camera would be our excuse.
Asking for Imad’s keys, Lyssa and I walked to the cars talking to each other. Looking for the camera I couldn’t find where Imad hid it. So I closed the car.
Me and Lyssa sat down on one of the logs we didn’t uproot from the ground. Having a little talk, I got close moving my body towards her cold body to produce some warmth, hopeful for some conversation, warmth and assistance from Lyssa.
First Kiss With Lyssa
Sweeping her blissfully into conversation we talked about why we were sitting there. Looking into each other’s eyes we knew why we were there but couldn’t place our feeling into words.
Leaning towards each other, expressionless but only that which speaks of passion, we sealed our lips, and our minds were at ease.
From that moment forth, Lyssa and I were open towards each other.
She felt safe with me.
She felt like she could tell me whatever was on her mind and I would do the same for her.
Imad started walking towards his car to see the story unfold. He found the camera and took it back to the fire.
Walking Alone With Lyssa
Lyssa and I decided to go for a walk to the pools not very far away from where we were.
A cold night, like that of a winter day, we strolled with each other’s thoughts in mind and hand in hand. Sitting near the pools, we progressed to talk to each other and make one another feel welcome. We touched once again, and again, and again.
When I first met Lyssa is pretty vague. Only my diary will tell. But I can remember the night that we first embraced our two bodies, and that was the night of June the 21st of this year.
Keith Joins Us At Corrimal Beach
Keith rang my mobile while Lyssa and I were holding each other and sharing our body heat. He didn’t know the directions and would like to have someone from our group help him find Corrimal Beach.
Ringing Ali, him and Penelope were the only ones left at the fire. Everyone else left for home.
Shawn, Fred and Kurt stole a car that was already stolen at the parking lot and drove it to Wedderburn.
Walking back to the fire, Penelope and Ali greeted us with smiles on their faces. That’s how we greeted them back. A fortunate night was found.
Keith found his way to the beach, staying only for as long as he could embrace the night sky and his girlfriend. I’d like to think that Keith and Tamsen didn’t speak to each other when Lyssa and I were close, and the thoughts in their mind were the only things that were speaking.
Cuddling With Lyssa On The Drive Home
Staying until 3am, we left and continued with the long drive back home to Campbelltown. Lyssa and I in the back seat, we held hands listening and responding to music.
Dropping them off at Penelope’s house, I kissed Lyssa goodnight and made arrangements for Sunday night to see her.
Ali and I drove home talking about the night that just passed just as quickly as it appeared.
Throwing Newspapers On Imad’s Car
We stole stealing papers on Saturday night back in Campbelltown and threw them all over Imad’s car.
Reading Lyssa’s Horoscope
Sunday was also as good. I read through the newspaper, paying attention to the star signs. Lyssa’s star signs for this week were excellent for everything. Mine were fairly much the same so, we had better live up to our expectations.
Ali and I got together in the afternoon some time. The rest of the sunny day was laid back.
Ringing Lyssa at 4pm, we planned to pick them up at 5pm to watch a movie at my house. Seeming that Ralf ran up my bill on my Video Ezy card I had to call around to borrow a card. That took time.
Phoenix At Pizza Hut
At Pizza Hut, Phoenix and Tabitha were there. I found out that Phoenix got onto Manson, Celina’s little brother, which made me laugh, as my friends bagged her.
Simon helped me out with the Video Ezy card. I hired out Shawshank Redemption, a thinking movie for Lyssa.
Watching Shawshank Redemption With Lyssa
Simon dropped the movie at my house, as Ali and I drove to Lyssa’s house to pick her up. She brought Mallory along. They both looked and smelt good.
Lyssa and Mallory jumped in the back. As I thought, Lyssa and I would have to make certain that the night before wasn’t wrong. We had to find each other again.
Driving to my house, Ali had to go to his house. I had to entertain people at my home. Turning
the movie on, Lyssa lay on the waterbed and I lay next to her, making both of us feel as at ease as we were the day before. Placing my hand around her, we lay next to each other, feeling safe, knowing that we were next to one another.
Ali Booked For Speeding
Ali came in telling us he was just booked for speeding, making him lose his license. Not really worrying for his license, he watched the movie, as I lay once again with Lyssa.
While the movie was playing, Bình, Shawn, Ralf, Tatton and Jett came in. We all watched the movie together.
Learning More About Lyssa
When the movie was over, Lyssa and Mallory had a smoke out the front. Me and the boys talked, but not about Lyssa.
For some reason everyone was shy to say something.
Walking to the front with Lyssa, we walked to the backyard, also with Mallory. We sat down to talk for some time. Finding out information like her full name which is Lyssa Spencer and that she was born on August the 20th 1979, she is turning 18 this year. She is a Leo, and everything else that I know about her that is too much to encounter here.
Walking back into my room with the girls, the volume dropped down to zero. No one knew what to say. I started it off. As soon as the conversation was flowing, everyone was alright again.
Jewell Catches Me Off Guard
During that time Jewell rang me on the phone and completely caught me off guard. What I done was talk to her nicely for a little trying not to say her name too much, as it would probably upset Lyssa.
As soon as I mentioned Jewell’s name in the conversation, I got looks from my friends, like, “Oh shit. He’s in trouble now.”
The truth is that I didn’t know what to do in the situation. I didn’t want to upset Jewell by telling her goodbye I have to go because the person that I like and am seeing wants me back. I also didn’t want to have to put Lyssa through the torture of having thoughts in her mind of Jewell and me. Neither did I want to see the sullen expression on Lyssa’s face as I was talking to Jewell, nicely. It made me feel bad, and it hurt me deep inside to see that two people that liked me, I could have hurt.
Rendering the problem, Jewell told me that she would call me tomorrow. I told her that we were going to Woodbine Macers and I had to be off.
Coming Clean To Lyssa About Jewell
After that decision I sat next to Lyssa and she looked uneasy. Looking into her eyes I could see disbelief and pain. So with one word, we were outside by ourselves where I could talk to her.
As I was speaking to Lyssa she told me that she didn’t really mind who I was talking to on the phone, and that she didn’t realize. Looking in her eyes I could see I had some explaining to do, and that she was telling white lies.
What I tell my diary now is how I feel and how I expressed myself.
The Truth About Jewell
Jewell and I were very good to each other. We never really fought and we broke up not too long ago, but everything was pretty much still up in the air, even after all this time. I’ve always been nice to women and I told Lyssa that.
I made her understand that I don’t need any person that I’ve liked to feel differently of me, because I like making people feel special and needed. Now that Lyssa is in my life, I’ve been thinking about her ever since I noticed her in Rory’s car a month or two ago.
Lyssa took that in.
As I held her hand, she held mine, and we embraced once again. That made me feel good and I felt needed once again… with Lyssa.
Woodbine McDonald’s With Lyssa
Walking back into my room I decided to go for a drive. Not give the wrong impression to Lyssa, we rolled to Woodbine Macers.
Lyssa told me that there was a girl once before that I met at Macarthur Square movies and I jumped in front of her in my sarcastic way and made friends. The girl liked me from then on. Lyssa was under the impression that I was the sort of person that would make friends and then when a girl liked me, completely discard them. How I gave that impression out is totally oblivious to me but I want to change the way that people perceive me, for the better.
Making Out With Lyssa
Bình and the rest of the boys talked at Macdonald’s.
Lyssa didn’t hesitate to stay in the car with me. She wasn’t embarrassed to lay with me in the car. We made out very nicely for a long time.
There are times that I made her feel special then. When she held my hands with hers and we lay looking at each other or kissing one another’s lips, we knew that it was right for the both of us.
Pampered By Lyssa At Raby Lookout
Driving to Raby lookout, we sat there talking for a while with each other. I lay on Lyssa’s lap as she tried to set my headache at ease. I like being pampered by a woman.
We sat there talking for an hour, knowing that today I had to leave for work.
Ali went to sleep and left the system on.
Lyssa and I were busy in the back, making Lyssa feel good all the time making her feel wanted and special.
Leaving that night at 1am, we dropped off the girls. I gave Lyssa a kiss goodnight.
Then Ali’s car broke down on the way home. Pushing some of the way, we got it started and he drove me home.
Deciphering The Anonymous Prank Call
What worried me about last night was that after we dropped off Lyssa, then dropped off Mallory, almost instantly my mobile rang. Picking it up, it sounded very quiet and a dropout occurred. No attempt was made to ring back. That wasn’t a prank because it didn’t feel like one, and I didn’t receive a callback.
Who would call me at 1am in the morning knowing that I’m going to work? It could have been Keith because he was working at Ingleburn Petrol Station. But I also think it could have been Lyssa, wanting to tell me something badly but hung up on the last moment.
Now that thing can be good or bad. Maybe it wasn’t even her that called, but things are going well. Even though my horny body is taking it a little too fast for her, things will work out, at least for the month, because I’m blessed for this month. I swear I am.
Konquer Insurance Work – Monday
Today I reached work a little later, but Frank isn’t here for the whole day, so I’m pretty much alone.
Jewell needs an apology from me, so I’m going to ring her after writing this diary entry on the work IBM computer, and talk to her.
Tabitha will probably have lunch with me since she now works across the street from me. I’m expecting to ring Lyssa also today.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
