I almost did not wake up again today. I was very tired. But again, I survived a day of work.
Unlike my laboring job at Meco & McCallum last year, I don’t regret taking the accounts clerk job. I like what I’m doing. It’s an experience. I haven’t had any days off or the need for them. Work is fun.
Konquer Insurance Work Day
Today the rest of the office got cleaned up. But there still needs to be some cleaning done tomorrow.
Calling Jewell at 1pm I knew that she couldn’t come down. I could feel she would say what she said.
Work ended at 4:30pm.
Trying To Meet Jewell
I called Jewell again asking her to meet me at the station with her dog. She called my Nokia mobile phone at 5:30pm, as I had asked her. She was at home calling me.
I wasn’t angry because she didn’t fully understand what I was saying. So I got her to call me at 8:00pm.
Making Discoveries With Jewell
Tonight we didn’t talk that deep, but more learned about each other and more anticipating than anything else. I tried playing games with her, but she isn’t in the right place to be in that mood.
She told me that sometimes she wishes she were someone famous. That way everyone would know her and pay attention to her.
I hear what she is saying. I will pay more attention to her, make Jewell the star she really is, like the star we picked out in the sky. Bright.
Near the end of our conversations we go all quiet and start talking very softly and easily. She told me that is what made her call me back, after I talked to her soothingly.
My voice makes you feel as if everything is going smoothly and makes you think thoughts you normally wouldn’t think about. It makes you do things you would not normally do.
Reflecting On Meeting Jewell
When I talked to Jewell on the third day of this month she fell in love with my personality. That’s why she called back. I fell in love with curiosity. That’s what I found out when I talked to her tonight. So let me explain.
When I first laid eyes on her I thought of her body first. Then I thought I needed to know her for that reason. I wasn’t going to walk to her but for Lucas and Tatton I did. Then I fell for the curiousness that she gave out.
Everyone else on that desk was interested in me except for Jewell. You would look at Jewell on that desk and think she wasn’t interested, but inside she wanted to know just as much of me as I wanted to know of her.
Curiosity got the both of us, and that’s why we are here now.
She attracted me that same day but not straight away. I attracted her by the way I treated her in person and over the phone. I respected her every way and word. I still do.
Jewell doubts herself too much. I’m here to take some of that doubt away.
Diary Of A Mad Chaos is a daily diary written from March 1996 until today, of which individual books and book series have been created, namely “The Lost Years” an exploration of young, entwined love, the “Wubao In China (猎艳奇缘)” book series which provides an extensive comparative analysis of the cultural differences between Eastern and Western societies, and the book titled “Foreigner (华人)” an exploration of race relations in Australia.
